Responses To Your Therapist That You Will Probably Never Say

[Ronin]

Former T / brief time one:

Thank you, thinking of you has been my reason to not give up on healing for some two years and a bit. Intersections aren't such a damned problem for people competent in their field, or maybe just with an actual heart.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

T: You look deep in thought.

Texcat plays with coffee stopper staring intently at its green color.

Texcat: f*ck you! Thank you for your expert abilities at shutting me the hell down. There are no thoughts here. None at all.

 

[desiderata310]

Cognitive distortion or not you still f*cked up and dropped the ball:cautious:
I shouldn't have to tell you that where it started was: 'I expect people to say what they mean and mean what they say' before acknowledging that yeah you actually DID maybe have some fault in what happened. Oh yeah and this wasn't the first time in the last 7 days that you have REALLY betrayed trust.
Don't expect that I'm just going to fall all over myself to forgive you, even if I do.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

Okay... so I actually read this to my therapist, and we cleared things up, and then the 2 weeks later she "fired" me. But I am angry right now. So...

Dr. Therapist, what the f*ck is wrong with you? You are supposed to be a therapist. To tell me that I had some responsibility/ownership in the drinking at this party? f*ck you! Let's say that there was no alcohol at this party and I wanted to go home, I still would have f*cking left with him. He was a friend. And the drawing with his arm around me? That is just a f*cking drawing. He was being nice. He held my hand, he gave me his jacket to keep me warm. He kissed me on the cheek. If he wanted sex, shouldn't that kiss have been more suggestive?. He was a f*cking liar. I would not have known. Drunk or sober. But to use the word responsibility, that is all on him. My God, I am just sooo f*cking mad right now. I am not responsible for this. You will not change my f*cking mind.

 

[Heather]

Will you move in with me and be my roommate?

 

[EveHarrington]

I seriously LOVE your ice tea machine sitting behind me that makes me jump every 5 minutes when it makes noise. Oh, you say it startles many clients? I can tell you know all about PTSD and trauma! Thank goodness I was specifically referred to you for my PTSD issues.

<rolls eyes>

 

[420kitty]

When I went to therapy:

"and how do you think this effects you?"
- You tell me. That's why I'm here. Do you even know what you're doing?

 

[Deleted member 29920]

I was wrong and you were right :bag:

 

[desiderata310]

I think there's something rather sad and telling about how everything is working when I go to SPEECH THERAPY and they pay more attention to details about my inability to do simple household chores, my isolation, and my crying than you do when I bring them up in sessions.

It's more than PTSD, f*ck man, it's more than depression now, I'm getting my ass kicked and no one's is helping.
ETA

Don't expect that I'm just going to fall all over myself to forgive you, even if I do

Yeah You STILL haven't called the neurologist. Don't think I've forgotten that either.
You've made it clear I can't count on you.
Thanks

 

[Ronin]

I'm considering giving you a call, again.

Because as pissed off I was about your victim blaming and microagressions, I could at least kick back and /think/.
.... Nevermind. I just remembered that was the moment we established the windows are fine & exits ain't blocked either. I just need people calming my hypervig for me. Good to know.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

I am so sorry that you feel really bad that you can't see me, a new client, for three weeks due to your vacation and conference schedule issues. And yeah, you got your regulars in on those Mondays that you will be working, but no room for the new one that just told you a verbal history that makes her secretly think that you are horrified and don't want to ever see her again. I get it. I am not important enough to be in your limited schedule. But really... it doesn't matter. I spent this entire session wanting to run out of here. My heart was pounding because you are wearing my trigger color. And your rug is my other trigger color. And I wanted to leave, but I was actually kind of frozen, so... "glad to meet you!" I really don't mind this 3 week break. It might take that much time to calm the f*ck down anyway.

 

[Ronin]

You know what /is/ my therapy? Not getting the damned therapy because the moment I start relaxing, there's hypervig kicking in and (that's-not-my-job-anymore-goddamn-it). Don't even get me started on how f*cking tired I am I'm able to drop everything about myself, included how to feed myself, but not watching out for security threats.

Because apparently that's what f*cking happens.
Oh, right. None therapist that'd get /that/.
Where do even people /get/ those therapists that would get someone is less capable than a toddler where self care is concerned & high functioning in areas they were trained in / are passionate about? f*ckit. Nowhere. Pointless rant. Promise I'm done with it now.