Returning After Break - Deep Dark Place, Realized I Need Support

[canucklady]

Hello Everyone,

Feel strange to come back here. I was in very deep dark depression. Didn't have energy to even come online. I am battling my way out now. I have come to realize I cannot do this alone.

 

[Deleted member 93]

Good to see you back CL.

 

[Monarch]

welcome back, dive back in there are great people here!

 

[wildfirewildone]

:hello: Welcome back!!!! This is the place you can always come back to!!! :thumbs-up ...HEARING THE PEACE.....DREAMING THE PEACE

 

[becvan]

Welcome back CL!

Glad to hear your fighting your way out!

bec

 

[nov_silence]

Great to have your back!

Mad Props for the work you did...and for coming back to the forum.

Nov

 

[Deleted member 487]

CL I may not say it outright to you or to others, but I still have you and your health in my prayers.

 

[anthony]

Welcome back CL... its actually a good sign that you went to that place, because now you just proved to yourself that you can come back out of it... pushing yourself will put you there, but each time you come out, "there" gets much less, to the point where you can push yourself with little to no after effect. Basically, experience makes us better and shows us how to mentally cope with issues again, instead of just getting severely depressed. Learn from our experience, learn from our mistakes...

 

[canucklady]

It seems like I am spiralling "there" again. I am trying to stop it, by not isolating, but being around people right now, just causes me to panic. I keep telling myself this too shall pass. But I guess lack of sleep makes it difficult to think clearly. Some days all I can do is cry and lay in bed, but deep down I know I have to get moving and get out of the house. It is like part of me doesn't want to get better and is sabataging recovery. Not sure if that makes sense.

 

[kers]

Maybe part of you wants to get better but part of your is a little scared or nervous to? Makes sense to me. Recovery IS scary.

 

[sparta21]

Hi cl. I'm new here, but I also isolate myself and know this doesn't help. However, sometimes it's just impossible for me to leave my apartment. Writing and reading here is a good sign, I think. It's reaching out and cutting some of the isolation. I know how friggin' tough this is.