Hello, right now I can't sleep. I was looking up ptsd symptoms and found this forum so I thought I'd let out all that's on my mind here... I am a 22 year old hispanic woman... and here's my story. Just TWO WEEKS ago I went out of town to DC with my best friend for the weekend I met a guy at the mall who was attractive and seemed very nice so we exchanged numbers ... the next day me and my friend had plans all day but that night she ditched me for her guy friend which upset me but it was last minute she's like that anyways ... me and the guy were texting all day and he asked me out for dinner and maybe drinks.
I didn't want to be alone in the hotel all evening so I agreed to hang out for a couple hours. I drove to his condo and from there we got in his car from the moment I got into his car I had a strange feeling but didn't pay much attention. We went out to dinner and he was a gentlemen the whole time so I was puzzled where this erie feeling came from so I went to the bathroom calling friends and family making sure everyone was ok and they were. To make a long story short after dinner it was dark by that time I was a little buzzed from wine and he drove me to a secluded area an abandoned apartment building. He pulled out a gun he made me go inside first he took my phone then my purse I had a few hundred dollars in my wallet after he robbed me he forced me to perform oral sex on him.
The whole time he was telling me he was going to shoot me. I was praying and begging for my life and wondered how I was going to survive this went on for only 10 min from the time he pulled out the gun. All of the sudden he stopped and said to me "if you go to the police I will find you and finish what I started, I have your drivers license I know where you live" then he left I heard his car start and leave. I sat there in tears for a couple mins then just started running. I ran for a good 10 mins before I came to a gas station where I had the cashier call the police. The monster had my car keys too the police found him less than two hours later but they didn't recover my phone or purse I didn't care about any of that I thought he was going to kill me and I think that was his plan but an angel or god himself didn't let that happen.
But my mind is so messed up from the event. I am scared of men and I'm scared to meet anyone new I'm scared to be alone and I'll be ok for a couple days then randomly relive the whole thing in my mind and have mini panic attacks... what should I do?? Certain little thing trigger fear and some nights I can't sleep, I have an intense fear of something like this happening again. I have a 3 year old daughter to live for. What is the best route for me to take to recover?
I didn't want to be alone in the hotel all evening so I agreed to hang out for a couple hours. I drove to his condo and from there we got in his car from the moment I got into his car I had a strange feeling but didn't pay much attention. We went out to dinner and he was a gentlemen the whole time so I was puzzled where this erie feeling came from so I went to the bathroom calling friends and family making sure everyone was ok and they were. To make a long story short after dinner it was dark by that time I was a little buzzed from wine and he drove me to a secluded area an abandoned apartment building. He pulled out a gun he made me go inside first he took my phone then my purse I had a few hundred dollars in my wallet after he robbed me he forced me to perform oral sex on him.
The whole time he was telling me he was going to shoot me. I was praying and begging for my life and wondered how I was going to survive this went on for only 10 min from the time he pulled out the gun. All of the sudden he stopped and said to me "if you go to the police I will find you and finish what I started, I have your drivers license I know where you live" then he left I heard his car start and leave. I sat there in tears for a couple mins then just started running. I ran for a good 10 mins before I came to a gas station where I had the cashier call the police. The monster had my car keys too the police found him less than two hours later but they didn't recover my phone or purse I didn't care about any of that I thought he was going to kill me and I think that was his plan but an angel or god himself didn't let that happen.
But my mind is so messed up from the event. I am scared of men and I'm scared to meet anyone new I'm scared to be alone and I'll be ok for a couple days then randomly relive the whole thing in my mind and have mini panic attacks... what should I do?? Certain little thing trigger fear and some nights I can't sleep, I have an intense fear of something like this happening again. I have a 3 year old daughter to live for. What is the best route for me to take to recover?
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