Roller Coaster ride of Suicidal Ideation

[FauxLiz]

@blackemerald1 that was my first thought so I started googling. I found all sorts of anecdotal stories of how parents saved their addict kid with the narcan their doctors had given them for this instance, stories of first responders, fire, police and ems all used it to resuscitate patients when they arrived at a call but I couldn't find any documentation even on the FDA's website requiring that he prescribe it.

BUT, I went to pick up the prescription today and the pharmacist asked me if my doctor had talked to me about the narcan. I admitted that he hadn't and she told me that it is now required. I don't know if it is a state requirement, insurance requirement or an actual federal requirement but she said that it is required. I could turn it down (and told me it is a tier 3 drug so my copay would be $80) for a prescription I don't need. So I have to eat my anger, apologize to my T for being angry when he tried to talk me through all this yesterday. Apologize to everyone here for being angry about it and spewing my anger here. Everyone is great support and I don't want to jeopardize that.

 

[blackemerald1]

I'm pleased you have found out it is a policy @FauxLiz and not a new attitude towards you personally by your doctor.

 

[TTC18]

I am just now reading all this - and wanted to say how much I admire you for continuing to work and push through everything. When everything went south for me, I just ... stopped. I think I could work if my life depended on it, but talking to people makes me want to cry. And meeting deadlines is next to impossible, and so on. I look at piles of things I need to do, and then shrug and don't do it. I know you have a TON going on right now - and it sounds like a real pile of mess. But - you're really doing great, from my perspective. I hope you have a better week next week.

 

[ms spock]

Apologize to everyone here for being angry about it and spewing my anger here. Everyone is great support and I don't want to jeopardize that.

You are allowed to have your anger, any other feelings, you are allowed to have a difference of opinion and your own different perspectives. This won't jeopardise your support here, people will be there if they can be there, I don't pull back from people if they have different opinions or angry, I pull back when I don't have anything to say, or don't think what I have to say is useful or helpful or I am struggling myself. If sometime pushes my own buttons or triggers I sometimes withdraw.

You are allowed to be you, and express yourself!