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[trying2movefwd]

Im having thoughts! :( I won't take action. My kids need me...but the child inside me wants to die. I just need to talk about it.

 

[Killashandra]

Talk sweetie. Don't hold it in. What's on your mind ?

 

[Mockingbird]

I have children too, and struggle so hard. I love them to death but I just can't help but retreat into a deep place where I'm incapable of doing much... I feel your pain..I'm sorry.

 

[Killashandra]

I'm glad that your kids need you that's what stops me every time I contemplate that out. But it doesn't help the influx of emotion that were experiencing. Breathe hun

 

[trying2movefwd]

I hate this holiday, this one and Valentine's Day! Bad memories, I can't. .. I just cant stand it.

 

[trying2movefwd]

I was already triggered and then i witnessed this aweful fight today.

 

[Mockingbird]

I was already triggered and then i witnessed this aweful fight today.

You didn't deserve that. Try to find some time alone for few minutes, if possible and find where you're at, then sort through it one by one.

 

[trying2movefwd]

Fireworks, deceased moms birthday, best friend a vet who lost battle to depression in March, memories of sexual abuse on this day in my history , and domestic fights, gunshots that were not fire works.

 

[Killashandra]

If only people would keep their nasty words to themselves. I'm sorry you had to witness that.

 

[trying2movefwd]

All on this day. ... this one day. Something inside me is making me believe I was suicidal as a kid during this time too. Like something horrible happened that i don't want to remember

 

[trying2movefwd]

It was an all out physical fight at a carnival in town.

 

[trying2movefwd]

Im sorry Im jumbleD.