Sufferer Scared Newby - Childhood Trauma, Abuse, & Trying To Quit Porn As A Coping Mechanism

[shatter eyes]

26 years sober keep doing what you are doing with not drinking because you are doing something right. Stay the course.

Maladaptive coping mechanisms can be worked on once identified and you did that.

 

[Sinner]

26 years sober keep doing what you are doing with not drinking because you are doing something right. Stay the course.

Maladaptive coping mechanisms can be worked on once identified and you did that.

I agree. I went into some detail with the cousilor yesterday. He said It was amazing that I survived the many traumas I have experienced. First time I've went into some depth. This will be an ongoing process no doubt.

Gonna try to work today. I am still in pain from procedure yesterday. Still pissing blood. Hurts.

On another note, I am panicked over the work issue. Getting ready to file for disability. Will be closing my barbershop. Need to find some way to bring in some cash to survive. Won't be approved if I'm working. Perplexed by this delima.

 

[Sinner]

Hey :hug: we understand. We can talk it through on here. Are you seeing a therapist?

The blanket is a really good idea. Can you do that and put on a movie you know you enjoy and let yourself get lost in it?

Kubash16,
Things have been pretty quite as far as people exchanging threads with me the last few days. Have I said something wrong?

 

[Kubash16]

As far as I’m aware no you haven’t. I know personally I’ve been really busy and struggling myself. So I’m sorry I haven’t been too active outside my diary.

When I get home tonight I’ll be sure to do some catching up. ?

 

[Sinner]

As far as I’m aware no you haven’t. I know personally I’ve been really busy and struggling myself. So I’m sorry I haven’t been too active outside my diary.

I hope all turns out well for you. You have been very helpful to me. A week or two ago I was looking for a way to kill myself. You and this community saved me. I care for you. All of you. I can at least pray for your situation to get better.

 

[Kubash16]

Aww thank you ?

 

[shatter eyes]

Pissing blood i can relate too.
I am glad you found enough comfort to share with counselor and hopefully start untangling the traumas.

Closing your barbershop is sad and a loss. The barber client relationship i have always enjoyed. Barbers are often wizard-like full of wisdom and endless topics to converse with. I want to say that when one door closes another will open. Take this time for yourself. Healing is a fulltime job.

I wish you blessings in finding some income as it can be stressful struggling to pay to live. Just know u are not alone and we are here to support each other and share ideas.

 

[Sinner]

@shatter eyes , I am heart broken over closing my shop. I just can't handle it physically anymore. I really did some soul searching to decide what it was I loved so much about it. I am an excellent haircutter, but my hand is locking up. Knee also. In order of importance and passion to me, it's actually 1. Ministering to people and spiritually loving on them That's #1. Secondly, it's the history and antiques and furnishing of an early 1900's barbershop. 3. Entrepreneurship. I love everything about planning and starting a small business. I love all three.
Thank you for your kind words.

On another note: The PTSD issues are tormenting me. The depression is overwhelming. Now I've got to figure out how to produce money out of thin air to survive while waiting on the disability to kick in. Just starting that process. I am panic stricken. I don't want to lose my home. What do I do?

 

[Wendell_R]

Things have been pretty quite as far as people exchanging threads with me the last few days. Have I said something wrong?

I would suggest engaging on some of the other threads, so other people get to know you. Or, start a new thread with a particular question or topic. Most of the "Introduction" threads don't go on for a long time. Nothing you said or did!

I went into some detail with the cousilor yesterday. He said It was amazing that I survived the many traumas I have experienced. First time I've went into some depth. This will be an ongoing process no doubt.

This is a good, big step!

 

[Sinner]

I would suggest engaging on some of the other threads, so other people get to know you. Or, start a new thread with a particular question or topic. Most of the "Introduction" threads don't go on for a long time. Nothing you said or did!


This is a good, big step!

That makes sense. I am just timid and not familiar with this website too good. I will try. Thank you Wendell.

 

[Kubash16]

That makes sense. I am just timid and not familiar with this website too good. I will try. Thank you Wendell.

Just about everyone will welcome ya! There’s lots of threads on the main forum and quite a few diaries around. You are more then welcome to jump into any of them.

 

[shatter eyes]

The PTSD issues are tormenting me. The depression is overwhelming. Now I've got to figure out how to produce money out of thin air to survive while waiting on the disability to kick in. Just starting that process. I am panic stricken. I don't want to lose my home. What do I do?

I am learning ptsd for me is about managing and learning vulnerability factors and triggers.. this site has been a huge part of learning and my counselors help with managing. DBT has tips on distress tolerance. I work at it as my life depends on it. Somedays even going out of room is tough. Other days going home is tough.

1900s antique furniture wow. That can worth some good money and hope the new owner will cherish them. Your heart is in the right place from 123 and remember if you did it once you can do it again.

I panic throughout the day and only at night when the world sleeps i come online to be myself.

I try to use the PTSd in a good way by telling myself the invisible internal struggle is real and I need to speak and share. I am 3yr+ since diagnosis so still a baby learning to walk the fine line between sanity and insanity.

I wish i had an answer form

I agree with kubash16. Check out other threads and areas in here such as social too.