Sufferer Scared Of Therapists, Tired, And Frustrated.

[PinkSugar]

After being diagnosed with depression (at 14) and treated for it, until it was changed to PTSD(at 16), I always knew it wasn't depression. I have a semi-understanding relationship. (As in he knows what not to expose me to- but doesn't understand that i'm not looking for attention, and suppression doesn't "fix" anything). I've been to at least a dozen therapist all of which I absolutely hated, and I have serious trust issues. I refuse any medical treatments, and going to the dentist emotionally wears me out for weeks. I have no energy by four o'clock, and everyone around me thinks I'm lazy and over-reacting. I feel so isolated and hopeless, I really hope for some advice or at least understanding..

I found this website because I thought my intrusive thoughts were schizophrenia and the internet led me here.
~Em

 

[a3a2]

I'm sorry, Em, but I think you are going to have to accept help if you want to get better. Take it in small steps. Have your partner help you so he can get a better understanding as well. But to get through this, you are going to have to accept help.

I'm glad you are here. The people on this forum are a great support system, and ready to listen.

 

[Hashi]

Welcome to the forum.

It sounds like you've had some very negative experiences of therapy. It's hard to do this without therapy, though, and I think it might be worth reconsidering. It sounds like you might have started therapy in your teens, even with the wrong diagnosis initially, and if so I imagine you had little choice in who you saw and what type of therapy it was. Is it OK to ask what you hated about the therapists you've seen and how long you saw them for?

If that isn't something you want to explore, then I hope that just being on the forum and getting more information, support and understanding will help.

 

[ms spock]

Hello and Welcome to the Forum!

I had some abusive therapists so I understand your reluctance.

 

[MoodElevator]

Hi there, and welcome.... I remember having a million pills shoved down my throat as a teen and it left me with a very bitter taste in my mouth. I think medication should only be used in extreme circumstances. There is a distinct difference between a therapist that specializes in trauma and a pill pushing psychiatrist. You have the power to heal yourself, but only with the help of others. You aren't lazy you're wounded, I hope joining this forum will be your first step in the direction of healing. It took me quite some time to feel comfortable with my therapist and open up to him fully. It's very terrifying at first but so very worth it. No one is perfect, but there is certainly someone out there who can help you heal. However most of the effort will be on your end and it's not a straightforward process by any means.

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[Rumors]

Welcome! What happens if you set aside your perception of what you think is going to happen and instead just take it day by day. The past doesn't have to be a precursor to the future. If you enter with an open heart and mind, perhaps you will find the help you so obviously want. If that is not possible, you could possibly be wasting your time. You have to give it a REAL chance meaning you can't believe it won't work before you even start.

Hang in there! I know that is tough. I have been there. Keep the faith and keep trying. Best wishes!

 

[ms spock]

I did find someone good in the end. I hope you do too.

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the PTSD Forum! :)

 

[circe47]

Pink Sugar- First off, I love your moniker!

Pink Sugar stimulates the branding and marketing side of "we". I'm thinking Pink Sugar Weddings, or Pink Sugar Resort & Spa. Anyway- on a practical note, I can relate to the mistrust with therapists. I remember the first one I ever went to. He was a complete a$$ on a power trip.

When I told him I was tired of having the shit beat out of me by one a$$&@1* after the other for the last twenty nine years he replied in a condescending tone, "then why do you stay?" Geez.....if I'd had the answer, I wouldn't be paying your dumb a@@ $150 for fifty minutes now would I? I certainly did not expect to have all the answers to my problems in one session.....but man, if the guy had any sort of business sense he'd have shown at least fake sympathy.........indulged my emotional need to vent with years of therapy.......all in search of the meaning of my life's purpose. Because I was smarter than him at my worst moment- I did not go back for seconds.

I have to say that therapists are like shoes. The trick is to try on many shoes until the right fit comes along. You will know when you KNOW it is a right fit. Don't be discouraged and you can always Yelp a shrink to see the reviews!

Bottom line, therapy is about being able to share your life's worst moments to an impartial and empathic HEALER. Someone who is able to step into your shoes or comes from the very same place. The best shrinks are other survivors.......not degree gatherers and power trippers who only make you feel bad for your undiscovered source for pain and problems.

 

[circe47]

One of the drawbacks of holding several opinions at once leads me to look at my post above and wonder what was I thinking. The most important message from this last post is that by all means, find a T that actually is empathic and not pretending to be- plain and simple.

As for the wise cracks in the rest of the post? Pay no mind to the mouthy, judgmental teenager in me that thinks she knows it all....:confused::wtf: