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I was only sixteen when I rushed down that hill to the man who had collapsed. Twenty minutes later he lay dead in my arms ! I was but a child when I held my first dead body in my arms.
At eighteen I was a serving soldier. Me and my mates were in the NAFFI bar when my best mate Richard left early that night. We were not just best mates, we were best buddies.
Half an hour later I returned to our bunk and cut Richards body down from the pipe above our bunks. My best mate since the age of five died that night in my arms, his last words "Tell my mum I'm sorry, tell my baby sister I love her!" Lisa was two years old then, he died on her birthday!
I have always worked with dead bodies. In my first year of nursing after I left the Military I worked as an end of life nurse and held 198 elderly cancer victims hands as they drew their last breaths.
None of the above matter !
Seven years ago this month my baby girl was born. Her mummy screamed at me the moment I delivered our daughter "WHY is my baby NOT crying??"
What I didn't tell her at that moment and have never told her until writing this thread is this!
She was still born!
Her cord was so tight around her neck she was blue in the lips.
I have held so many dead bodies in my own arms in the past 30 years, seven years ago I held my own baby girls dead body in my hands at the moment she was born.
My Hannah turned seven this month and her mother didn't even tell her daddy had sent her a present !! I have the receipt for the postage. One day I will hold my baby girl again. Hannah ...... DADDY LOVES YOU BABY GIRL.
I may be the biggest bastard ever to breath and my wife may hate me for very good reasons.....
But!!
I am a good man.
At eighteen I was a serving soldier. Me and my mates were in the NAFFI bar when my best mate Richard left early that night. We were not just best mates, we were best buddies.
Half an hour later I returned to our bunk and cut Richards body down from the pipe above our bunks. My best mate since the age of five died that night in my arms, his last words "Tell my mum I'm sorry, tell my baby sister I love her!" Lisa was two years old then, he died on her birthday!
I have always worked with dead bodies. In my first year of nursing after I left the Military I worked as an end of life nurse and held 198 elderly cancer victims hands as they drew their last breaths.
None of the above matter !
Seven years ago this month my baby girl was born. Her mummy screamed at me the moment I delivered our daughter "WHY is my baby NOT crying??"
What I didn't tell her at that moment and have never told her until writing this thread is this!
She was still born!
Her cord was so tight around her neck she was blue in the lips.
I have held so many dead bodies in my own arms in the past 30 years, seven years ago I held my own baby girls dead body in my hands at the moment she was born.
My Hannah turned seven this month and her mother didn't even tell her daddy had sent her a present !! I have the receipt for the postage. One day I will hold my baby girl again. Hannah ...... DADDY LOVES YOU BABY GIRL.
I may be the biggest bastard ever to breath and my wife may hate me for very good reasons.....
But!!
I am a good man.
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