I really would love some help with this one. My trauma happened when I was about 45 years old. I did not have grey hair.
About three years ago I had a woman describe me while I was present. She said very firmly that I had grey hair. I just about dropped on the floor. I swear to you I look in mirrors. All the time. I have asked trusted friends and they confirm I do, in fact, have grey hair. My grandchildren call my hair silver. People compliment me on my beautiful silver hair. I feel like a crazy person. I seem to be able to make decisions; take care of myself; am independent; don't rely on supports from anyone but someone I can't see my own hair color in the mirror?
It's almost like I can't see the 'new me' - the me that suffered the trauma but instead I am seeing my hair color to be the same as it was before the trauma. Can anyone else relate to this at all? It feels really screwed up and it has me wondering where else my perception is off. Does anyone else share this type of experience?
About three years ago I had a woman describe me while I was present. She said very firmly that I had grey hair. I just about dropped on the floor. I swear to you I look in mirrors. All the time. I have asked trusted friends and they confirm I do, in fact, have grey hair. My grandchildren call my hair silver. People compliment me on my beautiful silver hair. I feel like a crazy person. I seem to be able to make decisions; take care of myself; am independent; don't rely on supports from anyone but someone I can't see my own hair color in the mirror?
It's almost like I can't see the 'new me' - the me that suffered the trauma but instead I am seeing my hair color to be the same as it was before the trauma. Can anyone else relate to this at all? It feels really screwed up and it has me wondering where else my perception is off. Does anyone else share this type of experience?