LeiaFlower
Confident
How do I ease the feeling that I don't belong anywhere? My current medication helped with the emotional dysregulation but the numbness and emptiness still exist. I tried religion and the place of worship is the reason I stay away from religion. I'm trying again tomorrow though my apprehension is against it working. I tried friendships then developed codependency. I still have resentment toward my immediate family that I need help getting over. I threw myself into work and school only to have burnout. I then tried to balance, my occupation with mental health as well as interpersonal relationships; however, the empty feeling that I don't belong persists. Does anyone have any advice?
I know there are people who care about me and I care about them. However, since my sense of self is so low I feel alone when I'm without my friend. Even when I'm with her I feel alone. That she'll eventually leave and I'll be alone again. I just want to belong somewhere but I don't know if that's a toxic mindset. Am I supposed to just accept myself? The days where I'm by myself, no one checking in is the longest. But being with my current support system makes me feel alone as well. I wonder if there's a meaning to my existence. Or if I somehow was a flaw, a mistake that wasn't supposed to happen.
I know there are people who care about me and I care about them. However, since my sense of self is so low I feel alone when I'm without my friend. Even when I'm with her I feel alone. That she'll eventually leave and I'll be alone again. I just want to belong somewhere but I don't know if that's a toxic mindset. Am I supposed to just accept myself? The days where I'm by myself, no one checking in is the longest. But being with my current support system makes me feel alone as well. I wonder if there's a meaning to my existence. Or if I somehow was a flaw, a mistake that wasn't supposed to happen.