I still suffer from alot of shame. I think I do it to myself too much though, like most other people wouldn't give a shit and would forget about it, I don't know. I agree with what @Sophy (in lockdown) said. 'shame lives on secrecy and thrives in hiding'. It's best to not be embarrassed by it and to unload it by sharing it and bringing it into the open so that it loses its power and control over you. Am I ashamed of my dysregulation?... No I'm not because it's just part of (side-affect) of my illness. But I am ashamed of specific acts and situations of my life. I need to work on those probably with professional help.