Grandpa is berating me, lying to others about me and my care and is angry angry angry and anxious and fearful of dying. I had been up for him and barely sleeping for 3 weeks and I am at my wits end. I understand he is trying to cope and adjust to his health but I need to cope with it too. I have been bending over backwards for him. He lied to his caregivers about my shopping for him. Thankfully I have witnesses of truth, have been recording conversations and have had a friend over to prevent his behavior, I also notified doctors in case it's physical but they don't feel it is. And I have to draw the line at lying to caregivers there. Because if he lies to them they are still mandated to report and do an investigation. So if he can't be descent I need to leave which is so hard after a bankruptcy with a dog and cat , get a job that will pay rent. I have 2 on call jobs now and go to school full time and my ptsd is full force and shouldn't start a job with dissociation constant. Thank God I did okay last time I worked but smoking too much at home and have low concentration with high distractibility. My aunt wants me to stay so she has less responsibility and no one in my family helps cuz he was an abuser verbal and physical many years ago. He's lonely after becoming a widow 6 years ago. If he is verbally mean to me tonight I will have to go. I paid the price with his daughter and don't want to tolerate it any more from anyone. We will see
