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[KwanYingirl]

Good luck to Grandpa and hopefully while he's in the hospital you can take a nap!!!!

 

[Kailani]

Grandpa re admitted to hospital; possibly to do dialysis. Here we go again. Tons and tons to do ; need three of me.

 

[Kailani]

Having fun walking dog though!!!!

 

[KwanYingirl]

I know how much work it is to take care of a dialysis patient is. All special food, etc. is he close to renal failure? Hang in there. I hope the family continues to give you respite. Are you enrolled in school?

 

[Kailani]

I have 5 more classes for my degree and I work 3 other jobs on call besides my grandpa. My family lives far but we have a health aide, a sweet lady that helps with cleaning once every two weeks and a yard man once every two weeks. They did a kidney ultrasound and I should know tommorrow if he will want and need and do dialysis. You are so.... Sweet and caring Kwan girl!!!!! Really appreciate your input, advice and perspective!!!! Had a friend request on Facebook that had a bunch of friends that looked like terrorists so asked my army family and friends and they said maybe phishing, don't friend him and possibly notify homeland security. Crazy huh? Ptsd extraordinaire. Can't risk people getting hurt especially my friends Notified the army. Had fun taking care of the horse, goose, cats and dogs though!!!

 

[Kailani]

Out of hospital. On hospice but maintaining. My family sucks. Could care less about him or me. Only for themselves. Cold as ice about ptsd. Will be dropping them after he's gone. Will need money to survive after he dies.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Healing thoughts for you and I hope your grandpa is getting comfort.

 

[Kailani]

Having issues; my grandfather chose to stop eating and is drinking but I can keep him alive so I feel he is committing suicide. Is refusing meds suicide?

 

[The Albatross]

Tough question but more often it's a decision to quit prolonging life and it is a patient/client's right to refuse.

My maternal grandmother had a myocardial infarct... severely damaging her heart... she was hardly responsive, but when the nurse would come in, do the care and give her meds... she'd wait til the nurse was out of the room and spit them... shooting them over the foot of her bed. With chronic illnesses and also injury some people elect to suspend prolonging life. I hope this helps you?

 

[Kailani]

Grandpa died and I was with him the whole time; very traumatic. Trying to sleep a lot, cleaned house for appraisers and picked up ashes to drop from airplane. My family is trying to sell family heirlooms for money; killing me. Constant battle with family to choose love over greed or power and control. He left me a car and some money but my uncle said I can't have the car and don't know if I'll get the money. Not sure how long I can stay here. Need a job and to live in the right place if it's not here but my PTSD is so severe I don't want to set up for failure by trying to start a job too soon. Stress overwhelming. Wish God would relieve me finally; it's all been extra time anyways. Beach trip was the best. Shoulda stayed a week. Awesome guys and people in my life giving wonderful support. Hard times

 

[Deleted member 29920]

I am sorry for your loss and the difficulties you are experiencing because of that, my heart goes out to you (((((((((kailani)))))))))

 

[Kailani]

Fixed resume. Got a certification for more hours. Job hunting. Don't want my family to sell my grandparents belongings!!!! Want to stay here but may need to move. Awesome references from my bosses!!! Have to practice typing. My parents are attempting suicide on and off which is pretty stressful. And my mother said to my uncle when drunk that she killed all the people in the preschool next to her house. She didn't but it freaks me out. Wish they weren't next door!!! Had fun with friends, barbecue and got some awesome deals at the swap meet for warm clothes!!!!! And I believe there are angels near me which is comforting. Was watching a hot air balloon and took a few pics and when looking at it later it looked like an angel