She Is Gone

[Candleflames]

Something was off as I exited the freeway this morning. There was a flurry of movement and and then she was gone, just gone. Dread filled me and cars and buses stopped. People ran clutching their faces to the overpass and looked down. But she was gone from my sight. The roads stopped for as far as 8 miles. A 'death incident' the police called it. Still she is gone.

I didn't know her but we have something in common. It's that bridge. How many times did I longing look at those short railing. One could just easily tip over and be gone. And now this unnamed person is just that at the very spot I planned to do the same thing. Gone!

I'm so sorry for her. I know that pain. I know that spot. I will grieve for her even though she will never have a name for me to know.

 

[Stickler]

:( :hug:
Very sad.

Hmm...
Maybe you could get on go fund me, raise funds for a brass plaque with a suicide hotline number on it on said bridge?
I imagine the city council would allow installation as long as it's well-made...
Just a thought.

 

[Sammyiam]

That's so hard I am so sorry that has happened to a lady in pain, she mush have gone through so much to get to that point. The point we have all felt at some time in our life. Please take care of yourself at this time. It is such a terrible thing to get to that point, a point we have so often felt, but we all need the strength to keep together and help each other out in those times with support, her poor family and friends I feel for as well. I am so sorry for everyone, herself, family, friends, bystanders that couldn't help. It just a terrible thing.

 

[EveHarrington]

I'm so sorry. :(

I've been close to the suicide of a stranger and I know the emotions that maybe/perhaps you're experiencing. I know it's not easy.

Please take care of yourself.

It shows much of your character that you care so deeply about this woman. In my case there were many callous people making comments. The loss of human life is always tragic.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

I'm glad she has someone to grieve for her.. :'(

 

[sun seeker]

I can barely imagine what that must feel like to witness. I'm so sorry.

 

[Heather]

I was in group therapy when I was a teen and a member committed suicide. Very unsettling.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Your experience is so erie and I understand the connection and how de ja vue that is. But I am so glad that you did not choose this for yourself even though you had thought about it. I read that suicides are on the rise right now and this is so tragic.

I send you healing hugs and vibes because you did not choose that path for yourself.:hug:

 

[anthony]

And now this unnamed person is just that at the very spot I planned to do the same thing. Gone!

Has being on this side of the act, especially a place where you have thought of doing the same thing, changed your mind about such a thing now?

 

[Candleflames]

It's been a while since I had made that plan and a never did carry it out. I waffled back and forth about it to the point of agony. Yet never fully acted it out so never fully made up my mind. I don't know if or when I will ever be in that place again but I hope I can remember the shock and dread and pull myself out of it.

It'd be nice to have a definitive answer for you but really the best I can conclude is that I hope it has.

 

[anthony]

the best I can conclude is that I hope it has

I think that is a pretty honest answer. Anyone who has been suicidal knows, and should understand, that suicidal logic can't see beyond the act of just wanting to die and let the pain stop.