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[Ghostybear73]

So after talking with my therapist about what you said, cherryblossum, he thinks I should continue to participate in the forum as it is a perfect way to help me manage conflict with people that I have no real connection. He wonders why I didn't say what I really felt, since this is the best way to feel. Well, okay, here is how I feel:

1. If you don't have anything nice to say to someone (directly that is), keep your damn mouth shut. This does not just apply to me, it applies to everyone who wants to post crap on someone else. This is a forum for support, your responses are not necessary if you don't like or agree with someone. I can't speak for anyone else, but keep off my damn posts if you don't like them, I'm not here to defend my actions.

2. Don't assume you know the story. What was said could easily be misconstrued, but I shouldn't have to pussyfoot around my own f*cking wording to make the world happy. Yes, I laughed at her after she yelled and screamed at the cashier and stormed out....not to her face, but see...I shouldn't have to explain anything to anybody. If you don't f*cking like my posts, don't comment....again, shut your mouth.

3. I am here because of my PTSD, why you ask, well read my other posts. I am emotionally unstable as many of us are. I am learning to be sensitive and understanding when I truly don't care about life. I was doing pretty good until today. My anger is at it's peak and my son will be here in 15minutes. f*cking great, I get to see him maybe once or twice a year and all I can see is RED.

4. Next time I post, I will detail every single thought and word, this way when I post in a discussion threat about having to wait yet another day to see my son, which of course is causing anxiety (do I really have to spell this shit out, well I guess so). No, I'm not chit chatting, I am explaining how I feel and I am sorry that I am not clear to every one else. I didn't realize my job was to make everybody else f*cking happy. I was under the impression that joining a PTSD forum would allow me to vent, discuss and be emotionally vulnerable for my healing....NOT YOURS!!!

5. I hope you all can understand this as I don't want to have to do this over and over and over again because you are rude, insecure and obviously having a harder time with your emotions than you think. If you read a post I write and don't like it, walk away, you are not being held at gunpoint to tell me what you think about me.

I never said I was a nice person or a happy person or a stable person, but I suppose since I need to spell everything out for people, here it is. I am not a nice person, I am not a happy person, I am not a stable person....I have PTSD goddammit, so deal.

 

[Britt.f7]

Okay, on that note, I just want to say that I hate going to stores too. I use to enjoy it, but as I got sick (not ptsd) it became harder and I liked it less. Now, I try not to think about it too far in advance or the anxiety gets the best of me. Kudos to you for getting there and being able to go through with it.

Cherry blossom had a point, and you have a point. But it goes both ways, doesn't it, since you both have PTSD, as far as dealing with it?

 

[Ghostybear73]

I suppose if I actually laughed at her to her face, your right. I would be wrong. Unfortunately, once again someone didn't know nor asked before calling me names. Like, "hey, I really hope you waited until she stormed out to laugh", then this would not have been so bad. I would just prefer a person not reply if they are not going to clarify before accusing.

 

[Ghostybear73]

I didn't realize I was oblingated to make everyone happy. f*ck, I'm not happy, how the hell am I supposed to make everyone happy?

 

[Britt.f7]

You can't make everyone happy. Especially if you can not make yourself happy. Though I find it easier, usually, to make others happy before myself. Such a bad cycle I think.

 

[Ghostybear73]

Yeah, I know Britt, it is not that I don't try. I try super hard to at least be a good person. Of course, I hate shopping, but I don't treat people like shit. I would never laugh at a person to their face. Of course, nobody here would know that, but I'm not anyones friend here. I'm here for support and to provide support. My son just got here, so I gotta go

Thanks Britt

 

[Britt.f7]

Enjoy your time with your son!

 

[anthony]

@Ghostybear73 please tone down the rampage, especially against a staff member, of whom deal with enough shit helping manage this community, and don't need more. I will agree that everyone has a choice of what they comment upon, and whether they should comment or keep it to themselves, HOWEVER; when you post something into a community, you ARE going to get diverse responses. What YOU choose to take, and what YOU choose to discard and not respond to, is YOUR choice as well. It is a double sided coin, so to speak, and both parties are equally right to post.

 

[Ghostybear73]

That's kind of hard to do. Its one of the reasons I am here. I have no control over my rage and I am pretty sure we talked about it. However, as I go back and look at the posts some of the things she said were innapropriate without all the information. However, I will stop posting so as to not offend anyone again

 

[anthony]

You obviously didn't read what I said... and rage is no excuse. You shouldn't post here if you're in a rage, otherwise you attack others, which is against the rules. I didn't say either was right, I said if you post it, others will have diverse opinions to your own and could say anything... just as you can share your opinion on another's thread, which may differ from their own.

You take what you want from responses, ignoring those you don't agree with. Arguments occur because people try and argue their opinion, which is neither right nor wrong, its just your opinion / their opinion.