It might sound weird, but I congratulate you for your courage to call your mother. It's much harder to talk to your family than to anybody else, at least that's my experience. Your family knows you longer and in most cases better which makes it harder to talk about certain stuff. ...so, it's not a shame that you chickend out. I had the same problem last year.
Do you have a neutral person close by who you can talk to? ...you can also contact me if you need someone to talk to.
Do you have a neutral person close by who you can talk to? ...you can also contact me if you need someone to talk to.