I'm grateful that when she my therapist is leaving she let me know weeks ahead. I need someone who was consistent, someone who I can trust when trusting is soooo hard.
I don't know how I would have taken the note. I have been so sensitive to abandonment that any hint of dropping me was devastating. There was one time I knocked on my therapists door, and she didn't answer. I was sure that she was with another client, even though I had the time set aside for me. It felt like I was forgotten, or that her other client was more important than me. I just left, feeling rejected, knowing I was not of value to her. I texted her saying I wished she was there, and she texted me to come back because she just didn't here the door.
I don't know how I would have taken the note. I have been so sensitive to abandonment that any hint of dropping me was devastating. There was one time I knocked on my therapists door, and she didn't answer. I was sure that she was with another client, even though I had the time set aside for me. It felt like I was forgotten, or that her other client was more important than me. I just left, feeling rejected, knowing I was not of value to her. I texted her saying I wished she was there, and she texted me to come back because she just didn't here the door.
