Relationship So, Today's The Day....

[Wastinglight]

...that I collect the rest of my stuff from the house and move to my new place, never to return.

I suspect I'll be listening to this song a lot in the next few weeks.

I'll especially be singing along to these bits:

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear
Take the wheel and steer
....
But lately I am beginning to find
That I should be the one behind the wheel
....
Whatever tomorrow brings
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes
Whatever tomorrow brings
I'll be there, I'll be there

Thanks for your support, everyone.

 

[Purplemunchkin]

Good luck with the move, and keep up the :singing:.

:hug:

 

[nursenurse]

Good luck, great song!!!

 

[The Albatross]

"Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear
Take the wheel and steer"

Yup, yup, yup. Not the outcome you wanted or needed but it is here... deal with how it is, where it is, what it is, as it is and don't allow spiraling off (insomuch as you can) into fantasy land?

 

[scout86]

I remember leaving our farm for the last time, after I got divorced. (Actually, during the divorce.) My thought was "Hey! I have my whole life ahead of me and I can do ANYTHING I WANT! How cool is that?????"

Seriously, life is an adventure and you're on to the next phase. I hope it goes excellently well!

 

[scout86]

Hey @Wastinglight , this (if I can get it to work) is one of my favorite songs. I found this version yesterday & think it's the best ever. This is for you.

 

[illusionist]

This is your time now.....use it well. Best wishes to a positive future.

 

[Wastinglight]

Thanks everyone, I really appreciate it. Picking up my stuff last night turned in a real sh*tstorm, and I really wish it hadn't happened like that. I still care about the guy, and god help me, I still love him, even though it seems he despises me right now.

On the plus side, I really love my new place so far. I think I will be happy here. And I have many things to be thankful for - my friends and family understand how devastated I am by this breakup, and they have all rallied around me, and been incredibly kind and supportive - as have all of my wonderful friends here on this forum - thank you again!

((((((myPTSD Supporters))))))

Great song @scout86, thank you - very empowering!

 

[scout86]

even though it seems he despises me right now.

I can't speak for him, of course. But, when I left my husband, I did it when he wasn't around because I knew he was going to make it hard and I'd have to use anger to get me through it if he was there. The last guy I went out with....... Kind of the same thing. I knew (or believed?) it was a bad combination. He wanted to get married. I didn't. I kind of thought I had to act like I was angry to keep from turning back along the way. (He's now happily married to someone else and we're friends, although we don't talk often.)