Sufferer So Where Do I Go From Here?

[Werewoman]

Hi. I found this site while researching treatments. I've been in therapy and on meds for over a decade now, and through my reading on the internet today at various sites, I now realize I'm probably having relapses due to multiple new traumas.
I've been married for 24 years and we have survived so much together but I am afraid he's reached his limit. We're still together but I'm terrified this time may be our undoing.
He's so pissed at me because of my outbursts.
I don't pretend to know what it's like to be a paraplegic, but I think I can guess how they would feel if their partner (or anyone, for that matter) demanded that they stand up and then get pissed off when they can't. That's what I feel is happening to me.
For the most part, we have had a great relationship, it's only been recently that things got this bad. I haven't eaten or slept much in the last few days.

 

[lovely.rabbit]

Im very sorry to say that it sounds like a bit of a toxic relationship and if neither are able to realise their faults and want to better themselves then...it will only continue, counselling or trying to talk together and set goals for the relationship and as individuals could be beneficial. When two people live together sometimes it gets easy to mistreat eachother.

 

[Werewoman]

I probably should have prefaced that post with a warning sign, lol.

Pulling out of a major depressive episode. My face looks like a puffalump...

Anyway, our therapist has used many words to describe us, but 'toxic' isn't one of them. I'll have to think on that one.

Hubby and I were able to talk some of it through today after I posted. I feel better about him and us. I'm completely exhausted.

I don't know how much of what I perceive is real sometimes. I usually figure it out sooner or later, tho. This time just seems so much harder.

 

[Werewoman]

do do da doot doot.....

I thought I should update this.

Today I feel more like myself, whoever that is...lol. Why I posted what I did as an introduction, I don't know. Temporary insanity? Nah. That's 24/7/365. Nuthin' temporary about that.

I think I was merely expressing my undying fear of abandonment. He's one of the few people left that support me.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome! :-)