Someone Please Help Me Put Into Words

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Would he consider joining the supporters section here?

 

[Deleted member 1860]

That could be a double edged sword...

 

[Deleted member 20280]

The feeling in the chest I believe is the psychological impact of that NDE moment being remembered, as the body physically reacts to the trauma.

You literally stop breathing at that moment when the trauma happened. That is the moment we as sufferers trigger are at our most vulnerable and the moment when our grounding techniques are all the more important. I have a vague recollection of it being explained during one of my first EMDR sessions with my T last year.

I may be wrong. Please correct me if I am.

I also have a memory off having a mental picture of a balloon inflating and deflating gently in a rhythm,suggested as a way of mentally picturing my chest falling and rising. The sooner I could see the balloon the sooner I started to breath again.

Laurie

 

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@Laurie what is NDE?

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Apols 'Near Death Experience' when the brain has to cope with the moment psychologically as a result of the physical trauma suffered.

 

[Healing Reins]

For me this is what it feels like to be triggered (I don't know if you identify with any of this, but I hope it helps) It's frustrating, annoying that something so small can have such a big impact. It's scary really scary. And I'm numb to it. Does that make any sense? Like the trigger will happen, I'll be scared but at the same time I'm numb to it .

 

[Fadeaway]

Thanks all. I just woke up, so bare with me. He is a work now now, but I have mentioned to him before about becoming a supporter here. He said he would in the past. So I really hope he does.

I will also try and use the horror movie analogy.

 

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For me. triggers are when I get caught off guard and it propels me into a memory that is so painful and then I get emotional flashbacks and it all comes back to me and I am flooded with them. It causes me great anxiety and fear and terror and shame. It makes me doubt myself and then it is like I have two minds speaking all at once. It drags me down and I become fearful when I am around other people who will not be able to understand. I hope this helps.

 

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@gizmo

Very much so. I need to be able to come up with a better way of trying to cope thought, because what I am currently doing isn't working. My therapist has put it in my husbands head that when I am like this I need to go into the hospital. I keep telling him that would not be helpful. It would make me more fearful and make me worse. I also know that they just medicate to trying and get someone stable. Usually by the next day I am fine. I have a very difficult time with many medications. SSRI's give me serotonin syndrome and I am terrified of that. Just spoke with a new therapist today though.

 

[ghotiff]

My therapist has put it in my husbands head that when I am like this I need to go into the hospital. I keep telling him that would not be helpful. It would make me more fearful and make me worse

That sounds horrible. For me this would be completely unnecessary and very counter productive.

 

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Very, very counter productive. I think being hospitalized would be something else I would need to heal from, not help me heal.

 

[shimmerz]

A trigger to me when i try to explain it to 'normal' people is like this:
I just watched my pet get hit by a car in the morning, right before work (horror), then I sat in a traffic jam with no apparent reason for the traffic (frustration), knowing that my boss had already told me I was going to be fired if I was ever late (expected outcome), the tension of sitting in traffic anticipating what is going to happen to my family if I lose my job (anticipation and catasrophizing), the fear of walking in the front door when I finally get into work (anticipation and anxiety), spilling coffee on my shirt because I am so anxious about losing my job (feeling stupid), Walking through the front door knowing that I will have to walk by the bosses office in order to get to my office (anticipation and anxiety). The boss screaming at me even though I am trying to explain (not being heard) and telling me that he will decide by the end of the day whether I will lose my job or not (the unknown) but to GET TO WORK (performance anxiety) you lazy so and so (shame), people at work sneering at me because I am upset and they don't know what has happened (not being heard, shame, judgement). Barely able to speak to clients on the phone (performance anxiety) because I am frozen with fear (panic) that in this one day my entire life may change in an incredibly horrific way (anticipation, fear of the unknown). And it is my birthday and nobody - not even my wife has noticed (dismissal).

All of this in one day is too much for most. But during a trigger it happens in an instant, overwhelming one for the rest of the day or longer with all of the feelings in brackets hitting one in a single moment overwhelming the system and causing a reaction that is real but that others do not understand because they either don't understand or can't be bothered to care.