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KwanYingirl
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@Muse that question would make a good thread. You'd probably get a lot of comments, but I'm happy to share my point of view. To have to heal, there has to have been an injury. That could be an injury to the body, mind, or spirit. Healing from a bodily. Injury is easily described and evident because we have imaging technology to prove it. Like a cancer in the brain shrinks after chemo, or a pneumonia resolves thanks to antibiotics and respiratory therapy. A broken bone remineralizes and the fracture is healed. Healing is the disappearance of the disease or as some say a dis-ease.
Injury to the mind can be damage at birth, head injury from all sorts of accidents, chemical assaults, drug and alcohol use, neglect and abuse of all kinds to the developing brain. Many mind/brain injuries also manifest in the body, like fatigue, difficulty walking or talking ( like after a stroke) and so on. Treatments for brain injuries are surgical repair of arteries or removal of tumors, chemical like chemotherapy, pharmacology for mental illness that doesn't HEAL it, just reduces the EFFECTS of it. The brain is hard to heal.
That leaves us with injury to the spirit. This, perhaps, is where you feel conflicted or unsure what healing has to do with our spirit. This is the domain of heartbreaks, abandonment, exploitation, bullying, emotional abuse that cuts to the core of our essence. Dis-ease of the spirit is, I think, the deepest suffering there is. I am suffering just this thing and I am seeking healing for my soul sickness. I want my suffering to be transformed and sent out to the light of the world where it can be transmuted and returned to earth as positive energy. I want a spirit/soul that wants to thrive, to guide me to a sense of calm and connection to the world I live in. I want to believe in the goodness in people, not the damage they can inflict on me. I want to be in Nature and be awed by its wonder.
The only thing in my life that has touched and healed some scars is breastfeeding my babies. The look of them, their smell holding their tiny bodies in my warmth was without doubt the most spiritual awakening I've ever had. When I quit drinking, supposedly at some point in working the 12 steps of recovery in AA, there is supposed to be a spiritual awakening, but I never felt one. I just know my body healed from the damage too much wine causes.
So do I feel healed? Well, I have major depressive disorder, complex PTSD, Borderline personality disorder. I take drugs for depression, anxiety and sleep. They help but don't heal. MRI and PET scans have demonstrated actual brain changes in people with PTSD. Don't think there's much that can be healed there except to rewire my brain, train it to have less reactivity. My chakras have been healed with reiki. I'm working on my soul sickness with therapy, reiki and Shamanism, and polarity therapy. I require much support and reminders of how to reduce my suffering. Hope is hard to sustain, yet I have periods of time that I really do feel hope. Then something triggers me and I end up back in the mayo jar trying to climb out. Honestly, I do believe that I can heal. Not 100%. But some. Meditation and shamanic work address the soul, the inner critic, the self sabotage, the heartache.
Injury to the mind can be damage at birth, head injury from all sorts of accidents, chemical assaults, drug and alcohol use, neglect and abuse of all kinds to the developing brain. Many mind/brain injuries also manifest in the body, like fatigue, difficulty walking or talking ( like after a stroke) and so on. Treatments for brain injuries are surgical repair of arteries or removal of tumors, chemical like chemotherapy, pharmacology for mental illness that doesn't HEAL it, just reduces the EFFECTS of it. The brain is hard to heal.
That leaves us with injury to the spirit. This, perhaps, is where you feel conflicted or unsure what healing has to do with our spirit. This is the domain of heartbreaks, abandonment, exploitation, bullying, emotional abuse that cuts to the core of our essence. Dis-ease of the spirit is, I think, the deepest suffering there is. I am suffering just this thing and I am seeking healing for my soul sickness. I want my suffering to be transformed and sent out to the light of the world where it can be transmuted and returned to earth as positive energy. I want a spirit/soul that wants to thrive, to guide me to a sense of calm and connection to the world I live in. I want to believe in the goodness in people, not the damage they can inflict on me. I want to be in Nature and be awed by its wonder.
The only thing in my life that has touched and healed some scars is breastfeeding my babies. The look of them, their smell holding their tiny bodies in my warmth was without doubt the most spiritual awakening I've ever had. When I quit drinking, supposedly at some point in working the 12 steps of recovery in AA, there is supposed to be a spiritual awakening, but I never felt one. I just know my body healed from the damage too much wine causes.
So do I feel healed? Well, I have major depressive disorder, complex PTSD, Borderline personality disorder. I take drugs for depression, anxiety and sleep. They help but don't heal. MRI and PET scans have demonstrated actual brain changes in people with PTSD. Don't think there's much that can be healed there except to rewire my brain, train it to have less reactivity. My chakras have been healed with reiki. I'm working on my soul sickness with therapy, reiki and Shamanism, and polarity therapy. I require much support and reminders of how to reduce my suffering. Hope is hard to sustain, yet I have periods of time that I really do feel hope. Then something triggers me and I end up back in the mayo jar trying to climb out. Honestly, I do believe that I can heal. Not 100%. But some. Meditation and shamanic work address the soul, the inner critic, the self sabotage, the heartache.
