Starting To Get Depression Warning Signs

[Lady of Longbourn]

4 weeks. This is getting to be to long. To much. I am getting tired.

I want to cry. I want to scream. I want it to end. I want to be healthy. In school. Smart and active.

I want to text my T: Help me!

But I don't want to go to the hospital. I don't want to be around people. Even though the hospital saved me last year...I don't want to go right now.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I want to know if you are having an anniversary reaction. You need to call your T. I hope you can get ahold of him. I think you need to go for help. I am sorry that you do not want to be around people right now. Mabe you will not have to go to the hospital.

But you are important. You deserve to get the help you need. You cannot do it alone. Big hugs.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

anniversary to what?

 

[Deleted member 12723]

To something bad? I wondered if something bad happened at this time of year.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I have seasonal depression. It happens like this every year.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I have it too. I have been taking vitamin d and I got two day lightbulbs for my lamps in the den and it has been helping me so much. I am doing so much better than I was last year. I hope you will find something to help you too.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Would like to crawl into a hole.

I know I should text/call/email my T. Even though my mind is screaming "Reach out and talk!" I can't bring myself to do it.

 

[Tinyflame]

You should then Ayesha. Or you'll get like me, I feel more and more like a shirt turned inside-out, not desiring of 'words' let alone to speak them. Or even be able to, and no desire to. I don't think that's healthy.

Maybe it will help a lot for you to do it. Especially if you don't have any expectation, but some useful connection helps. I think you should.

(((((Hugs)))),xox.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I can't find words for how I feel. Been awake all night. Tired, restless. Just...

:cry::(:(:banghead::banghead::banghead::banghead::cry:

 

[Innordinate]

:hug:

Restless because I know I should do something to fix the depression faster, too tired to care to be able to do that, frustrated because I'm too tired to care and it makes the depression worse that I can't fix it.

Like sinking in quicksand, every time you move you sink a little further down, but you can't just stand still and die, you have to move, but it always just makes shit worse!! There's just no way out. It's a no win game plan.

Give it some time, you're feet will hit solid ground and you'll be able to walk out.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I feel a bit better today. Not so heavy. My sleep is a bit better and I have plans to keep myself busy.

Not sure how long that will last. Not sure what is helping. Busy, support group, sleep? I think all combined.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

There is no way that this good spell can last. I wont set myself up only to fall again.