Staying present

[Choosing]

I find that art in lots of forms is a real respite for me.
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[MrMoonlight]

I love art too @Choosing all forms really.

I'm listen to music almost non-stop because the silence is too much.

Music is really big for me. So often I can relate to lyrics, mood tempo. I get lost sometimes. It's a real joy, one I need to me mindful about. My music choices can be reflection of what I'm feeling at the moment which can lead me deep into to blues. I'm trying to watch what I consume, from food to music.

I don't want to lose the connection music gives me so I'm trying to find songs and artists with a more positive message. Not that I think connecting with the blues is bad because we can learn a thing or two when we dive into the deep end.

 

[Freida]

So happy it helped!

 

[Journeyman]

I picked up a DBT work book to try to help with dissociation and feeling overwhelmed. Something that was an ey...

well; maybe the music, and house cleaning really keeps us in the moment/mindful. But, I wonder, sometimes if the drama is what we are used to from the past? So, quiet seems weird, and; really, a different neural pathway is beginning. So, stay with it, it does get better. Do you practice guided imagery, deep breathing or meditation? There are so many on YouTube. I found one that was interesting "Overcoming Addiction - The Root Cause Of Every Addiction"

 

[Reflections]

Every single day I’m flashing back to every bad decision I ever made, caused by fear-decisions from PTSD.

This has been a huge part of what I have been doing right now. I cried when I read this and haven't been able to reply to it. I've made so many bad choices in recent years due to fear. I got more in touch with my feelings a couple of years ago when I got close to someone (to the point I nearly stopped dissociationing because of that person) but when that someone pulled away I didn't know how to cope. I didn't want to go back to numbing and not caring, I knew that wasn't good, but I didn't have strong enough skills to deal with my feelings. I have in part ruined my closeted relationship and pushed everyone else away. I keep distant for fear of screwing up the little good I do have or because I don't trust some of those friends as emotionally healthy. I feel so alone and I miss closeness with another.

well; maybe the music, and house cleaning really keeps us in the moment/mindful. But, I wonder, som...

I do think that's part of the reason why it's so easy and natural those thoughts come up without even trying. It's a well used neural pathway. Its why it's so hard to keep with positive and uplifting thinking.

I haven't done much guided imagery meditation. I have some muscle relaxtion meditations I use regularly. I do use deep breathing meditation, but not consistently enough. I've been out of sorts.

 

[Ladygdala]

Thank you all for these! I’m trying to reconnect with my body as well. Running is great. Exercise and that impact when my feet hit the pavement is great. Also being outside is refreshing. Peppermint and piney outdoorsy scents for essential oils are nice too.