FindingMyself88
Platinum Member
Yesterday's session was one of our most intense sessions since I have been seeing my therapist in over a year. First off it had been an extremely bad week. I just learned last thursday that I have PTSD from childhood abuse and MDD. Then Sunday I had such a severe panic attack and break down, that I had a thought and idea of suicide, but managed to not do it. I did end up cutting. I shared in therapy, so of course that alone made the session difficult, she wanted to know what made me feel like that was the only option. We also talked about the nightmares I had had during the week which have been extremely bad. Normally I wake up before the beating or incident takes place in an attack, but this past week I experienced the full traumas. Some how it got brought up how I felt when i was 5 or 6, and my T asked me to revisit that child and explore what that little girl needed.... that was incredibly powerful. I said that she needed someone to hug her and tell her she would be okay. My T asked if that was still the same now and I said yes.
It was a very different experience. She asked me if I felt like I needed help then and I said no, that I was okay. I dont know, it was just different and I am still trying to process it. Has anyone had similar experiences??
It was a very different experience. She asked me if I felt like I needed help then and I said no, that I was okay. I dont know, it was just different and I am still trying to process it. Has anyone had similar experiences??
