silver_turquoise
Bronze Member
I've posted here before about my "blank out" experiences which I get when triggered or overwhelmed... they seem to be getting worse and more complex.
Last night my partner hit his head hard, and knocked over a room divider on top of me while screaming. I held it together for about 30 seconds and then the yelling from pain got too much and I had to run away to the bathroom (our flat only has 2 rooms so this is the only place I can go).
My brain was aware the whole time but my body just wasn't listening. I froze up in a foetal position and fainted/passed out a few times, and in between was completely frozen, unable to move and unable to make myself understand sounds. My muscles were dead and I couldn't control movements or talk properly. Hours later when my husband went to check on me I alternated between this state and being very defensive in a regressed sort of way, still curled up in a ball but with clenched fists and yelling to go away in a really childish way.
This lasted for hours and hours. 12 hours later after having slept I still feel nauseated, dizzy, sick and unable to process talking or sounds properly.
Does anyone have any idea what is going on? It feels like my grip on reality is getting way too loose and I'm so scared of what's going to happen to me.
Last night my partner hit his head hard, and knocked over a room divider on top of me while screaming. I held it together for about 30 seconds and then the yelling from pain got too much and I had to run away to the bathroom (our flat only has 2 rooms so this is the only place I can go).
My brain was aware the whole time but my body just wasn't listening. I froze up in a foetal position and fainted/passed out a few times, and in between was completely frozen, unable to move and unable to make myself understand sounds. My muscles were dead and I couldn't control movements or talk properly. Hours later when my husband went to check on me I alternated between this state and being very defensive in a regressed sort of way, still curled up in a ball but with clenched fists and yelling to go away in a really childish way.
This lasted for hours and hours. 12 hours later after having slept I still feel nauseated, dizzy, sick and unable to process talking or sounds properly.
Does anyone have any idea what is going on? It feels like my grip on reality is getting way too loose and I'm so scared of what's going to happen to me.
