Strong anxiety only when trying to sleep at night

[Calmdown]

I don't know why. I suddenly have strong anxiety in the evening. The day can be great, I go to bed everything still is great and then I turn around to try to sleep and the anxiety hits. I never had it like that before. Yesterday was the worst, I could not close my eyes despite being tired as hell, every noise made me more anxious. When I turn around with the back to the room or simply close my eyes I fear that a certain someone is standing there (to clarify: I have no bad memories of that person but there is more to it), I know it is impossible but the panic is real. I sleep with dimmed lights on now but it barely helps.

The secondary anxiety is in the morning when I try to make sense of all this, I simply don't understand it and it makes me fear that I am losing it. I take a low dose of promethazine, but this just makes me tired and doesn't keep the anxiety at bay. I still have some lorazepam here, which never helped for social anxiety but I guess it could help for the fear I have when trying to sleep. I know that I can't take it for long and not together with promethazine. I just need something to break the cycle, because if I expect something bad to happen every night it might make things worse.

 

[Seatheroad]

I can understand this. But why does this happen I fall asleep then the anxiety comes. I find that I fight with someone or something can't see what it is. I have woken up yelling arms flaying. My heart is to blow out my chest. Sweat pouring down my face. This started about 3 months ago after going great for a year. What has triggered this is unknown TP has not helped.

 

[Calmdown]

Did you try promethazine? It might just alleviate symptoms but it is better than nothing. You don't need to take it daily.

 

[abovedown]

I don't know why. I suddenly have strong anxiety in the evening. The day can be great, I go to bed everything still is great and then I turn around to try to sleep and the anxiety hits. I never had it like that before. Yesterday was the worst, I could not close my eyes despite being tired as hell, every noise made me more anxious. When I turn around with the back to the room or simply close my eyes I fear that a certain someone is standing there (to clarify: I have no bad memories of that person but there is more to it), I know it is impossible but the panic is real. I sleep with dimmed lights on now but it barely helps.

The secondary anxiety is in the morning when I try to make sense of all this, I simply don't understand it and it makes me fear that I am losing it. I take a low dose of promethazine, but this just makes me tired and doesn't keep the anxiety at bay. I still have some lorazepam here, which never helped for social anxiety but I guess it could help for the fear I have when trying to sleep. I know that I can't take it for long and not together with promethazine. I just need something to break the cycle, because if I expect something bad to happen every night it might make things worse.

My anxiety is worst in the mornings but ca spill over to evenings as well if the day has been a stressful one.

I need to be mindful of the entertainment I consume as too scary movies or podcasts can cause nightmares and I woke up to my own yelling (and probably end up waking mu my neighbors too lol)

 

[Calmdown]

Last night was one of my worst. Took valerian 2g and could not sleep, additionally I took paracetamol 500mg for an awful sinusitis. I don't know if it was the meds but I experienced awful emotions. I could not keep my eyes open and I breathed through my mouth like I was sleeping but I wasn't and I experienced all of this on off sleep with my head tilting forward. When I awoke from this again and again I was crying and didn't even know why, like something horrible happened. A few nights ago I took melatonin and awoke 3 hours after sleeping, crying like I was abused. I don't know why. These are so strong and awful emotions, I never erxperienced anything like that and from time to time I fear that I get crazy or my time is over.
The last weeks I could not sleep, maybe it just is too much. Next week I have my first appointment with a therapist since I was triggered, but therapy isn't starting yet and I find no fitting clinic. I am all on my own.