Structural Dissociation And 'chatter' And Subsequent Answer

[Powder]

I get intuitive information in various senses. No, T's are not able to understand, so I give up on that. Let them call it "acute observation" from hypervigilence if that helps them cope.

My MBTI is INTJ. INTJ's know things they can't explain.

It was always frustrating to know exactly what was going to happen but not be able to tell why, have nobody listen, and then have to watch it all blow up in my face.

I'd say more but I've got shingles and feel terrible. I'm sure it'll come out wrong. So just here to say you sound way more normal than me. :rolleyes: Not that that helps any. :hug: But I am here for you.

You can look up Allisonian ISH, but it's a head full. ISH=internal self helper. He had this as in MPD. Yes, you heard that right, MPD, not DID.

IMHO that is not the whole story.

 

[Chimera]

@Muse I hope the shingles heal quickly...I know how awful they are.. :hug: (without touching!)

I get the frustration side too, and the doubting of it...because, really, who wants that information? Especially when it's something inside and everyone already thinks I'm off my center...no credence given..not much anyways..I will look up Allisonion ISH...I'd like to talk about it when you feel better...and I hope that's soon.
Take care..

 

[shimmerz]

http://www.astraeasweb.net/plural/ish-angel.txt

Super helpful! Thank you Muse! Feel better very soon. You have really been getting hit with stuff lately. I am so sorry for that.

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear @Muse , I'm so sorry re: the shingles!!! :( :hug:

How so?

Short version, lazy muscle, if good eye not patched as child brain 'corrects' distorted image. Surgery twice (cosmetic, lasts about 6 years), third time told would likely leave me blind/ too much scar tissue. Upshot is I 'see' normally, with depth, good eye tests doubly-normal, bad eye tests 0. Oddly, improves with sleep (supposed to, I can't get much) & affected by over-active optic nerve. Nothing to do with strengthening any muscle, but rather retraining the brain to not 'fix' image.

that is SD.

I'm at a loss of what is SD. I must say, at least due to rarity & unexpected input, what I 'hear' (as in comes to me) doesn't feel internally-generated , as in part of my own nature or thoughts, closer to gut instinct but more explicit. But what do I know? :rolleyes:

 

[blackemerald1]

Wow, I didn't know other ppl did this too. I have a whole brain load of stuff..
useless information, that came from somewhere.

It gets me that "uh oh she's got a few horse's loose in the top paddock" look!

Then the one who is primal...voice that saves my life & other's.

Then my 'brilliant' intellectual rubbish that happens at really embarrassing moments & cause's people to step back & go 'what...' followed by HTF does.. did SHE know that?? Like my brain goes into hyper computer mode & yes I blurt something out, which is correct but just gets me into a big hole. People have made fun at me for all my life for being this way. I suppress it. It's not how you can make friends... it scares people.

Then there is me who has nothing inside left & is so tired.
Like I have lived too many lives.
Just me, who is terrified, muddled, unable to solve a simple problem, get anything done etc., have friends who know me... don't mind my brain launches...and all my complexities.

So, I just come here.

 

[Chimera]

@Junebug I wore the patch...had to switch eyes every 2 days, I think...the exercises to strengthen the muscle were the way I learned how to "hypnotize" myself to sleep...

@blackemerald1 those people were dolts, and terrified that an elite upbringing and education didn't equal superior intellect, so they bullied you into thinking it wasn't brilliance...just strangeness. They are Liars.
Don't buy into the lies.

So much to share...

 

[Tinyflame]

I learned how to "hypnotize" myself to sleep...

I wish I could do that now! :sleep: :hug:

I refused to wear it.

 

[Chimera]

I wish I could do that now! :sleep: :hug:

I refused to wear it.

I could message you what I leaned, if you think it could help...tomorrow, if you're interested.

 

[Tinyflame]

choose counter-intuitively'.

This is so- weird. It feels like, self-abusive to choose to do things that cause pain.

 

[Chimera]

Maybe it is?

:hug:

 

[Deleted member 28740]

My body MAKES me process. I recognize that is what I am doing when I am put into these states. I am trying my hardest to be happy that it is doing so.... that it is trying to help me get to the light at the end of the trauma tunnel.

Revisiting this post Shimmerz. For so long I thought it was me, as though I had a choice, buck up and get on with it, my self judging, and others.

.it's the exhausting feeling of having to hold myself upright, look at people, and say what I really think. f*cking hurts.

Miss you.

 

[Tinyflame]

It's counter-intuitiv to stay. Maybe that's my answer @Chimera .