Stuck in Rumination and Derealization Loops

[ags1]

I am trying to understand something, I go in circles. Most of the time I am checked out, can't focus, ruminating. Like right now - feeling confused and trying to understand something. Then sometimes the world feels unreal, there's something evil just behind everything, I am glimpsing something I shouldn't know, I feel terror like I am in mortal danger. And then moments later, I am checked out, ruminating, trying to understand something.

I feel disoriented and disorganized. I am not sure of basic things, like am I left or right handed? What am I making up? I want to pull all the fragments of me together, but I don't have the energy, I can't find a stable point to start.

 

[Movingforward10]

Yep, sadly relate. It's a very confusing and exhausting place to be.

For me, with the impending doom: given the state of the world that is feeding logic in to my state of mind. And then I think: it doesn't matter, I don't matter, it was all coming crashing down anyway. And back to my limited obsessive view of whatever issue I am ruminating on.

I don't have words of advice but just sitting along.

 

[arfie]

empathy, ags. in my own case, this is a vicious psycho snot knot that plagued me for decades. it isn't so much of a problem for me these days -knock wood- because i have learned how to recognize and ply therapy tools before i fall too deeply into the proverbial rabbit hole. just learning how to recognize it was quite a feat.

"tactile grounding" was my first effective therapy tool in dealing with it. tactile grounding remains my go-to tool for the phenom. there are tons of suggestions on the internet. a post such as this one and/or sharing about it in live support groups also helps break the isolating cycles which i hold as the culprit behind the phenom.

steadying support while you find what works for you.

 

[corgi_SDiT]

Any time I am in a derealization state I use tactile grounding. This helps me get back to reality to know that what I am seeing is real.

 

[parrotthepolly]

The first paragraph is my everyday but I don't recall experiencing anything in the second paragraph naturally... Makes me realise I'm unhappy with my existence cause I never had a chance to escape the world since I got here!