Suggestions?

[Crow]

In therapy Thursday I talked about and processed some abuse I've never spoken about. Usually I would have a follow-up after an intense session within a few days but T is out of town until late next week. I'm not depressed but I'm having major challenges. Laying down I'm fine. But when I get vertical, the world goes weird. Not sure how to make it through this. Again, I'm not in crisis but I'm weirded out. And I had planned to go to dbsa tonight but forgot.

Thanks guys.

 

[Jnean]

yes been there for sure. Maybe just chat with others about anyone to get mind off of it. Or book on tape. Something comfy and warmth helps me with comfort. Eye contact with someone you trust maybe over skype just to talk about anything other than this. It's normal when new things come up. It's almost like I was high on something. If I would've stayed in bed I may not have blacked out after I disassociated. My pre cursors to disassociating are my vision gets slightly blurry, feel foggy, world looks different. I use grounding techniques that I know work for me. It's a very scary place to be but you've reached out. You can get through this. Try to do something almost automatic like that you enjoy, and don't have to really focus on. I organized CD's and folded laundry once and that worked. I slept and that works if I don't try to get up.and do a bunch of stuff cuz then I disassociate but now its not so scary. If that helps. I. Sorry I kmow its tough

 

[Crow]

Thanks. It is tough but helps to know you understand where I'm coming from. Just in the last six months have I stopped passing out so this is pretty much all new territory. And I've broken ties with my past but haven't quite built new relationships so the eye contact and talking would work, there's just no one to do it with. There is a counselor at work who I think stays really bored. Maybe I'll drop into her office when I go into the office this week. Work is not getting done but luckily things are slow. UGH!!!! I just want to go on top of a mountain and scream my lungs out for hours.

 

[shimmerz]

Just in the last six months have I stopped passing out so this is pretty much all new territory.

I can really relate to this. For me, it has meant feeling stuff... no idea what to do with it. Congratulations on this! This is huge!

 

[Crow]

It is @shimmerz but I feel more crazy than ever. What the hell do I do with actually feeling stuff? :eek:

 

[shimmerz]

I am right in the middle of it right now. I am up and down and back and forth.... no idea.... a super uncomfortable feeling. I am writing in my diary as much as I can and then I analyze it afterwards. I find I have more phobias somehow, and my head feels super crazy because it won't stop on something. I have NO idea what to do with my body - it is so used to dropping.... *heavy sigh*