Hello, i am a survivor of emotional abuse. I spent my entire childhood being manipulated and systematically terrified by my dad's verbal and emotional abuse. He is still in my life and still abusive.
He cheated on my mother 5 times over the course of the first 25 years of their marriage, 3 of which were in my lifetime. They are still married. I witnessed many occurrences of terrible verbal abuse towards my mother and, when I grew older, it began to be directed at me as well. I spent my teenaged years being told how untrustworthy and worthless I was and only had those ideas reinforced through behavior.
I never learned how a healthy relationship ought to function so I spent many years seeking out men who would manipulate and cause me emotional pain in my own romantic relationships. I am now in a serious relationship with an amazing and wonderful man who loves me more than I deserve but I still have trouble feeling 100% safe and secure in my relationship.
I was only recently diagnosed with PTSD and I'm terrified to seek out the treatment I need as I am in college and still financially dependent on my father. I guess I'm here to hopefully find some peace and support in the madness.
He cheated on my mother 5 times over the course of the first 25 years of their marriage, 3 of which were in my lifetime. They are still married. I witnessed many occurrences of terrible verbal abuse towards my mother and, when I grew older, it began to be directed at me as well. I spent my teenaged years being told how untrustworthy and worthless I was and only had those ideas reinforced through behavior.
I never learned how a healthy relationship ought to function so I spent many years seeking out men who would manipulate and cause me emotional pain in my own romantic relationships. I am now in a serious relationship with an amazing and wonderful man who loves me more than I deserve but I still have trouble feeling 100% safe and secure in my relationship.
I was only recently diagnosed with PTSD and I'm terrified to seek out the treatment I need as I am in college and still financially dependent on my father. I guess I'm here to hopefully find some peace and support in the madness.
