Swift Mood Shifts???

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Yesterday I woke up terribly depressed, because I'd had a flashback the night before. After coping with SI, I barely got dressed and drug myself to work. I was sitting through a training, feeling like I could melt into the floor or break down at any moment. I wanted to be alone and climb into a dark hole. A couple of hours into the training, I suddenly felt this rush of relief (that's the only way I can describe it). I briefly thought I might be entering a panic attack, but it leveled out instead of getting super manic. It scared me that I felt such a noticable shift when I had just felt like I was trudging through frozen molasses. I've been diagnosed with depression and PTSD, but never anything else. I've had this happen before, but was never sitting still and able to be so mindful of it. What was that?

 

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I'm not sure, but if I were to guess I would say that maybe the flashback triggered a part and that part may have still been in control initially in the morning. During the training maybe the change you experienced was coming back into your adult self.

Do you have a therapist that you work with?

 

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@Gia1019 I do. I see T Wednesday and I'll be sure to mention it to her. It was almost eery

 

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I wonder also if you have gotten more self-aware as you've worked through things and that's why it felt so strange or maybe more pronounced. Do you ever lose track of time or can only remember bits and pieces from your session?

 

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I do lose track of time. For years I thought I was having mild seizures of some sort. Had a kooky lady tell me I was in the spirit realm.

 

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Something I just remembered @I'smom was that the first time I discovered (more like admitted, I didn't want to deal with it whenever my t. tried bringing it up) that I had a part was similar, but the opposite of what it sounds like your experience was. I had just had a session and was just getting ready to walk back into work and it was like a wave of anxiety came over me and it was very sudden and very scary. As in denial to my t. as I was about my parts, I quickly fessed up and called her and told her pretty much, 'ok, I do have a part and I'm really freaked out, what do I do now?'.

It seems kind of funny to me now, because I was refusing to deal with it at first, but now I'm more accepting. Apparently my t. must have seen it from a mile away... I think she even warned me that if I don't deal with my parts that they will make themselves known whenever they decide they want to be heard.

Anyway, I'm not sure if this is what is happening with you, but maybe your t knows. It just came to me that it was a similar sounding feeling even though it was more the oppositite in how it came about. Just thought I would pass this along, I hope things go well talking with your t.