@PTSDbegone I had my session with T yesterday. We talked quite a bit about DID, my fears about it, she helped me with my safe place thing. Hard to describe without writing out the whole thing, but essentially it's a safe place (written in the book she gave me) that no one can come into unless I invite them, and there is a place to store memories that I'm not ready to work on yet if they come up.
T said something yesterday that made me tear up, not sure why it did, but she said that when she (T) is talking that all parts can hear her. I don't know, it doesn't seem fair that they can hear everything and I can't, that I get left in the dark. Also when T was installing the safe place with me Little and I started to bicker back and forth in my head; that made me feeling bat sh*t crazy. Little wanted to come out and talk to T, but I kept telling her no. There were a lot of reasons I didn't want Little to come out and talk, one being that I really needed to install this safe place, I know it's important for me to do my work and have it, also, T and I hadn't established any ground rules in case a part came out to talk. I didn't know what T would do, I didn't know if she would tell me, I didn't know if she would share what was said. It was scary, so I yelled at Little to stay put.
T also said yesterday that she is open to talking to any parts that come out, as long as it is ok with the core. I didn't tell T about the bickering with Little while I was in session with her because right after we finished the safe place time was up. I emailed her late last night and mentioned it, but I also told her my fears behind letting Little come out, or any part coming out on their own for that matter. I asked her if she would tell me, I asked what she would do, I asked if she would share what was said.
Hoping she gets back to me today because it's consuming my thoughts right now, and I would really like to study for my next midterm that's on Monday.
