General Taking Care Of Me

[amethist]

Got up feeling really achy in my arm and neck this morning. It took me ages to get going.

This is all part of it though, so hopefully it will show up in the blood tests.

 

[amethist]

Had to resort to pain killers today, first time in weeks.

 

[amethist]

I feel absolutely exhausted, my body feels like it has been run over by a truck and I have not had any sleep for a week.

So today I have done very little apart form a bit of shopping and picking a packet up from the sorting office.

 

[jstme]

That's something . I cant say what one should or shouldn't do, but I do know it can be really hard not to beat up on myself when I take a break whether its my body telling/forcing me too, or my brain just taking a dive. I realized something the other day though, sometimes its absolutely necessary for me to take these dives, as much as I hate them, and it feels like they are bringing me backwards not forward. Its like this, I said to a friend the other day, that sometimes something needs to break in order to fix it, if we don't accept that we crash sometimes, how can we acknowledge that work is needed to rebuild.

Not in any way saying its fun, or even a good thing. I just had to acknowledge this the other day in order to get myself out of a few weeks of absolute despair.

 

[amethist]

Another day of doing my own thing, and taking care of myself.

Hubby has taken himself off to bed to shut his mind down, leaving me to entertain myself yet again.

I have plenty to keep me occupied though, from watching TV to washing.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I actually like doing more simple things like washing and cleaning. It actually seems to help clear my mind and suddenly things don't seem to harsh around me.

Glad you have some things to do. It always helps.

 

[amethist]

Tonight Ayesha I am watching NASCAR racing ;)

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Oh wow, that is fun. I have seen a race in person and it was great. Lot of car crashes at the end which made me feel both worried and very entertained. :confused: :roflmao:

 

[amethist]

Still waiting for it to start as they have had rain and they are trying to dry the track out with blowers.

Its fun if I put the surround sound on, the crashes sound like they are happening round you.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

In person the whole thing is very loud. The engines are very loud, a lot louder and high pitched then they appear on TV. If you are in the crowd you have to wear ear plugs or you could hurt your ears.

 

[amethist]

I have been to motorbike racing years ago and that was loud too.

 

[amethist]

I went to the hospital yesterday for an appointment to have my blood checked due to a slightly high white cell count.

The consultant I saw was not particularly worried about it as he said it has been like this for quite a few years now, never going really high, and I could be just one of those who has a slightly higher count naturally.

So all that worry for nothing, hubby had all sorts of stuff going through his head.

At least that is one issue we can put to bed and forget it altogether now.