Ten, Twenty, Thirty - Words, For When Sentences Evade You

[The Albatross]

Day 10

10: quiet, rest, sleep, cough, sneeze, snot, blow, precautions, viral, bored

20: hydrate, eat, chest hurts, breathe, news, work, frustrated, waiting, ears, ache, soup, again, bundle up, sweat, detox, bath, tea, nose, raw, eyes swollen

30: emotionally, okay, minor set back, resigned, calm, stoic, understimulated, choir, invited, should I go?, can't read music, sing by ear, director, snapish, don't know, husband, busy, taking up my slack, insecure, don't like being ill, home

 

[The Albatross]

Day 11

10: cough, hack, mucus, sleep, dehydrated, expectorant, get it out, quiet, confirmed

20: work, tomorrow, ease in, try it, early?, no, no telling, breathing, improved, still time, get better, soup, ears ache, sweat it out, today

30: quiet, home, relax, take care, time, stops, goes slow, swallow hard, eat, something, drink, weak, headache, improved, 4 hours, tomorrow, do it, 4 hours, then rest, weird emails, two, Suzanne, sounds, bad, call her?, meds?, maybe James, first

 

[The Albatross]

Day 12

10: quiet, cold, sniffles, cough, work, today, ready?, try it, need, out

20: isolated, thanksgiving, invite?, schedule, church, dishes, plan, need to know, shifts, pools, expensive, repairs, confusing, new problem, how?, feel, better, today

30: encouraged, avoidant, cautious, pace myself, breakfast, Saturday, ask, then, lonely, in my bubble, like, no stress, but like, the calm, the quiet, it's easy, easier, time, time to go back, back out, again, mix it up, and resume

 

[The Albatross]

Day 13

10: cold, cough, feet, weak, rest, cook, deadline, today, need to, finish

20: worry, some, stress, none, quiet, today, detached, today, contest, win, place, draw, make husband proud, blank, stuck, dumb, pushing, impotent

30: I get, like this, time and again, frozen, waiting, for what, just present, still, breathing, blank, reactive, not active, like a catalyst, is needed, for me to move, it's weird, and wonderful, comfortable, when still, nothing, seems important, not exactly, but routine things, evaporate

 

[The Albatross]

Day 14

10: coughing, snotting, gurgling, medicate?, weak, do it anyway, push past it

20: maintenance, problems, worry, assist?, late night, feeling, frustrated, anxious, need to go, tonight, assist, scissor lift, scary, intimidated, sloped deck, heights, need to go

30: knee, improvement, still swollen, new exercise, they don't know why, ankles, improved, big question mark, still compensating, annoyance, no results, sleep study, called them, left message, two weeks, hope that's a good thing, need to rest

 

[goingonhope]

Ten: scared, angry, depressed, hurt, omg, no f'n way, neck pain,

Twenty: stress, too much, aggravation, why now, wtf, how could they, how could I not know, frightened, relieved, let down, appreciative,

Thirty: head throbbing, arms ache, life passed, dark thoughts, memory loss, easily forgotten, dumb, how on earth did I survive, I hate those people, I fear them, their ignorance cripples, pricks

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Ten: their ignorance betrays, liars, thieves, how can I make this

Twenty: right, fix this, set the record straight, correct errors, escape stupidity, speak up, assert myself, make them see correctly, run,

Thirty: hide, fear them, rush, no time, pressure, must quit, stress, isolated, tough shit, do the work, must get done, done for the evening, I hope so, rest and sleep perhaps.

 

[The Albatross]

Day 15

10: neutral, stoic, frustrated, confused, action, necessary, late, cold, phone calls, walk in

20: mom, trip, worry, walking, fall?, Thanksgiving, work, scheduling, order in time?, delivered?, husband, shooting range, invited, soup, doctors, tests, results, frustrated, not good

30: thirsty, need a meal, coughing, still, need to shop, Rx problems, again, square one, symptomatic, how much is allergies?, don't know, rye grass, plant today, no calls, don't want to talk today, need to, need to though

 

[Charmedone]

10: upset, silent, hurting, brain freeze, sad, pressure building, fear, evil, bad
20:not safe, terrified, remembering, sighs, runs, hides, corner, cries
30: cant take no more, safe person talks, R's arms, off the floor, weary, sleepy, sore

 

[The Albatross]

Day 16

10: electric, feeling, stomach, nerves, cold, cough, sore throat, anxious, today, push

20: empty feeling, stomach, cold feet, questions, apnea, confused, stress, knee, tired, waiting, shut up, be quiet, whine, whine, whine, stupid

30: holding pattern, hard to deal with, sometimes, in a rut, that's a lie, buck up, just do it, happy, list, gratitude list, how hard can it really be?, avoiding, procrasinate, hard to do when you feel like shit, mentally, mild anxiousness, when?, when?

 

[The Albatross]

Day 17

10: quiet, blueish, stoic, concerned, trying to be brave, future, troubling

20: blue sky, run down neighborhood, check engine soon light, on, again, deal with it, tight, leaky roof, need to help Aunt Linda

30: cough, snot, feverish, more soup, breathe, wishing I felt better about this, smile today, try, for his sake, feelings, just feelings, they change, kalidescope, get out of your head, distract, and find something to enjoy, today

 

[Ice_Fire]

10: tired, afraid, small, quiet, sad, empty, pain, headache, bed, sleep.

20: nightmares, danger, fear, panic, acceptance, worry, control, kindness, hugs, teddy, tattoo, self harm, resistance, confusion, fighting, need for safety, love.

Can't think of thirty more...

 

[The Albatross]

Day 18 ... the extra added bonus of this exercise, is that I have to slow down my thoughts enough to type them so it seems to be helping my ADD/ADHD.

10: car, repair, expense, worry, frustrated, changed schedule, plans canceled, no dreams, last night

20: feel, better, today, than yesterday, not quite trusting it, my dad's birthday, tomorrow, is it better?, than last year?, worry for a friend

30: can't afford, accupressure, avoided, her, so I didn't have to explain, bills, expenses, property taxes, paid, symptoms less, still there, feeling, only half real today, the other half is sardonic, glum, turn it around, be safe today