Ten, Twenty, Thirty - Words, For When Sentences Evade You

[The Albatross]

Waking up this thread to see what's rumbling around under my hood:

Ten: insecure, forgetful, freeze, brain cramp, stress, anxiety, piss me off, frustrated, inner critic

Twenty: troubling thoughts, wanting to procrastinate, turn it around, turn it around, you always get upset when you add new things, shut up and quit being such a whining little b*tch

Thirty: Eat, read, rest, self soothe, breathe, it will pass, it will pass, "It ain't no thing, it's just something NEW.", "It's just a passing phase, you'll grow out of it.", "I want it all, I want it all, I want it all and I want it NOW."

:O_o: Frig. What a damn mess today.

 

[goingonhope]

Albatross, ...sending you my thoughts for a much better experience of tomorrow. Hugs to you and hugs just firm enough to really help calm some of your challenges and pain.

(((((Albatross)))))

 

[The Albatross]

Think I want to keep rolling on this exercise for a while (and thanks GOH).

Ten: Nausea, back ache, blephartis, allergies, internalizing stress, worry about scheduling, new commitments

Twenty: Busier, 7 days a week, it will normalize, get used to it, new people, new situations, use the day runner, be organized, stress reduction, it doesn't work if you don't do it

Thirty: Self care, self discipline, incentive, financial, necessary, what's one happy thing, find it each day, be grateful, put the camera back in the car, look for photo opportunities, hydrate, no meal skipping, it will pass

 

[goingonhope]

I think I'll join you Albatross. There's been a number of times I've re-attempted posting here and then just cut it before posting due to talking myself out of doing so. For about a month, posting within this thread, really threatened to awake malevolent and fearful dialogue from a conflicted yipping chatter-box, so me having taken a break may've been wise. There has been just too much to tackle and face already.

Ten: Wake, unprepared, exhausted, sick, emergency room visit, new day, breathe.

Twenty: Leery of strangers with familiar faces, anxiety, to begin predisone, leery of atarax, postponement, benedryl substitution, symptoms temporarily relieved, allergen.

Thirty: Major stressors, nauseau, rabies scare behind me, alive, lumps, swells, hives, reoccurring, confusion, lymph nodes, threatening, wtf, pressured head swells, good news, perhaps hives, costs, copays, wind, prescription takes flight.

 

[safenow]

I'm confused. Are these just random words? or do you type ten words, then ten more, then ten more?

10: wake, sleep, groggy, stupid, pain, aches, pee, yawn, stretch, go

20: dishes, laundry, fridge, fold, clothes, think, eat, drink, blood sugar, number, shoes, cold, heat, scriptures, study, peace, air

30: clean, sweep, dust, vacuum, sheets, blanket, pillow, air, toilet, paper, wash, soap, towel, walk, window, door, open

(Did I do that correctly? )

 

[The Albatross]

Right, off the top of your head, spontaneous words or phrases... like "stream of consciousness". It's supposed to be ten words, then 20 words, then 30 words. But if I stop to count I'll freeze or get stuck. So I just aim for around that many and try not to falter.

I did this once for 30 days, in the beginning I found it very difficult to free flow and I was freezing or getting stuck a lot.

Very worthwhile.

 

[safenow]

If I count that high, I have to take off my shoes and socks. Giggle

 

[The Albatross]

10: tired, fatigued, dry mouth, sore eyes, spiders, dust, so much to do, hard work, sleepy, nap

20: stress, milder, cats, order bulb, itch, calmer, quiet, risks, today, leave early, don't forget to take out the trash this time, gas expensive, need to watch that, another goal reached, remember to check it off

30: Pollen, wash car, bring day runner, update it, sweet tea no ice, need supper, husband tired, order in, bed early... three commitments tomorrow, a hurdle, can I jump that high?, need the money, vet bills, Body Boy, retest, hopeful, feelings, stoic, again, default emotional state, smile, fake it, no one will know the difference, it's the changes, it will pass

 

[The Albatross]

Back to the basics for me for a bit... this always makes me feel a bit better.

10: calm, concerned, hesitant, reasoned, disturbed, moderate, allergic, need to rest

20: quiet the nerves, be gentle today, decide, pace yourself, center down, rest, have some leisure, no threats, no danger, no fear

30: No need to worry today, strategy, mind over matter, press forward, normalize it, push the limits, self examine, self affirm, self comfort, self actualize, best it, beat it back, win, hold the feelings, no judgment, stretch to accommodate new situations

 

[goingonhope]

Ten: Overwhelmed, brain shutting down, can't happen, errors overwhelming, must fix -

Twenty: errors, scared of errors, must fix your errors, must fix my errors, rage, can't become rageful, destroys people, beyond ill,

Thirty: must not be ill, feign wellness, or else, frustration and anger, stand up, show up, keep doing, suffering, tough sh't, hopelessness, poor attitudes, triggering, escape, correct, run, hide, sad, prisoner.

 

[Changing4Best]

10. I eye breast fake not please not I can't, can't do this
20. help me this is so scary I don't want to face what I might have to go through to survive this
30. Maybe it's nothing, not cancer, not nothing either though, as I have symptoms and the other day these went all throughout my body, racing to the edges of my inner world OUCH!

 

[Changing4Best]

@The Albatross I found it! And look what came up right away. I did not know it was bothering me as much as it is. Buried emotions, hmmmmph! I hate that. I really thought I was doing so well. This is a good thread. Thanks for pointing me to it.