The Banging

[moshpitmunkey]

We're all here for each other @Purpose_ and your not wasting anyone's time at all. If I know anything about this support group is that they are the most accepting, and they will listen. You can verbalize your thoughts and emotions without judgement.

From what you've disclosed you say you're afraid of being homeless? Are there any shelters or group homes you could go to in your area? Wishing you the best, hoping you can heal and move forward

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Yay @moshpitmunkey for listening and offering great suggestions! I believe that helping others is the biggest step on the road to recovery.

@Purpose_ it's been a few months since you first posted this - has anything changed?

 

[Purpose_]

We're all here for each other @Purpose_ and your not wasting anyone's time at...

Thanks!
You have to work to stay in a shelter and there always full. But to be honest. I really don't see that as a "way out". A lot of my suffering comes from the fact that I was forced to bump elbows with the shadiest of shady characters. So the thought of me purposely putting myself in basically the same situation, REALLY makes my mind go dark.

Its kind of embarrassing to say, but because of this I have been STUCK. I wake up everyday and stay in same spot I woke up in, all day. Bathroom, kitchen and back.

I went out 4 times since April.

 

[moshpitmunkey]

Thanks!
You have to work to stay in a shelter and there always full. But to be honest. I really don't...

Wow, you really are in a tough spot. I really empathize with everything you are struggling with right now. You're much stronger than you think you are for hanging in there and continuing to keep going. I wish there was more I could do. Please take care of yourself and your wellbeing the best that you can during this difficult time

 

[Purpose_]

Yay @moshpitmunkey for listening and offering great suggestions! I believe that...

Nope. It has actually gotten worse. The trolls under the bridge (the 6+ unwanted people that live here) are getting more and more comfortable, and the more comfortable they become, the less comfortable I become.