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I listen to @Ms Spock - when she is trying herself to practice (literally) Radical acceptance - when I am trying to control (out of control) life decisions, thoughts, etc. Another thing I do is - I pray; and I also go to one second at a time - if I am in a really horrible mental state (lost friend this past Friday - she passed away). And one of the most important things I do - is I come here as you - and I land on the planet of www.myptsd.com as much as I humanly can be in this life-giving forum @Shankara - and learn all I can about pcptsd and how it almost succeeded in taking my physical life and still has been trying so far - unsuccessfully - to kill me for most all of my life. I am no longer an alien on this planet of Radical acceptance (Ms Spock) and I no longer am alone when (which is most of the time and all throughout my life my brain has been messaging me to end my life). Now, when my mind (brain) is messaging me doom and gloom thoughts, the reprogramming is kicking in.
EMDR Therapy is working (7th Session) seems so; my brain in mid-thought (negative) is reprogramming itself with positive messaging (another words replacing negative self-destructive messaging (brain) to positive messaging. I am shocked, blown, and astounded what brain is replacing by rote negative messaging with - and again that is positive affirmation messaging. Mind-blowing @Shankara. EMDR is so far - working to help with horrific negative self-destructive messaging. I also only try - try and try again over and over - to stay in the moment. One minute at a time (not so great at this - I catastrophize (have this to an art) on just about everything daily. So, working hard in therapy to tell the horrific stories one at a time and watch the cascading vertical moving light on EMDR machine and am allowing this machine and psychologist to densensitize and reprogram my brain. Sending you warm well wishes and thoughts of peace for your precious mind. JadesJewel
