The Slightest Change In T...

[KeepingTime]

And I just shut down. My foot is in a cast and my t's office is upstairs. T offered to see me in a different office downstairs and tho reluctant I agreed. I don't handle change well. Even the slightest shift in my chair in his office can throw me off balance. I can focus I can't talk I get so flustered. And it ends up feeling like a wasted session. T knows I don't handle change well and he asked me how I was feeling in the new office. It just seemed hazy. I don't think I dissociated. It's like I can't go that deep when I'm like that.
Does that make any sense?
I have several more weeks in this cast and I don't know whether to "welcome" the change as a growth thing and continue to use the new office or to deal with hobbling up the stairs in hopes to actually feel like I am accomplishing something while I'm there.
In my head I know it shouldn't matter but it effects me.

Does anyone else have this level of difficulty dealing with change in therapy? It's not like it's a new t or anything but it just didn't seem like it was him or me...like it wasn't real.

 

[watundah]

Argh. Yes. Just went through this as my T permanently changed offices and I was in Trigger City!!! I haven'tbeen back and am trying to think of how I can calm myself before I go. I had a big email spill out with her so she knows all the details.

My T suggested this is a time to work on separating the internal triggering from the external stimuli, but I'm not sure I want to spend my dime that way.

I hate the feeling of a wasted session!! If it's only a few weeks, can you skip sessions until the cast is off? I get the growth thing, but when you're frozen, are you growing? No!

I would love to know how to go in calmly. I am trying to remind myself that the relationship is the same and the space is irrelevant, but my inner child is completely whacked out.

Best of luck. Let me know how it goes.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Yes, I get it. I had a T change locations and I couldn't handle it, so stopped seeing her prior to the move. I was too fragile then. Now, though, I will say, I don't like noise and since my appointment changed to Noon, there are noisy people in the room below my T's office and I find it horribly distracting and, like you noted, a wasted session. It's changed how I respond to the T as well, I just can bear to bring it up yet. Hoping you fare better. Best to you. VB