I have not found any meds or therapy helpful to me in my PTSD recovery at all. I also do not like going to therapy because enough of my life has been wasted on the trauma.
What I think helps me is self-care, a positive way of doing exposure therapy on myself, and talking about what has come up for me via intrusive memories with my husband. Establishment of trust with my husband has kicked off the healing process. The rest unfolds as it should and it happens at home. I have to spend time thinking about and reflecting on the past in small doses, and then talking about it with my husband.
Basically, I suspect that this is a kind of therapy.
When I went to therapy, I was basically hearing an echo of my husband's statements, and it got annoying to have to pay to hear the same thing from a stranger that is already said in my home and main relationship.
But, even though my PTSD symptoms have reduced to being much more liveable since processing the hot spot traumas that have come up for me spontaneously, my health is taking a nose dive.
I have an autoimmune disorder that is coming into its own and have also a weak immune system. So I have chronic Shingles, that don't respond to my meds for them and keep me sick and in the Dr. most of my free time. I have a good chance of losing my eyesight or other severe damage from the illness.
The Dr.s so far haven't helped me with this. They say to reduce stress.
In order to do that any further, I may have to stop working and apply for disability.
I don't think I can go there because I'm not in therapy for PTSD. In fact, my PTSD might be worse than I think and I may be in denial (again) so it would help me track my PTSD if I had a good Psychiatrist who can administer CAPS scores and other scores and help document what's going on with my health as it relates to my PTSD.
Can anyone speak to this? Anyone not want a "relationship" with a T (I confess I do push people away and always have. I have kept my marriage over 20 years, some extended family I am close to and converse with often, and function well at work and in my own family, so I do not see a big issue with my tendency to not desire many relationships).
I don't want a relationship with a T. I just want a Dr. who can guide my health and life/career related decisions so that I don't work myself into the ER.
What I think helps me is self-care, a positive way of doing exposure therapy on myself, and talking about what has come up for me via intrusive memories with my husband. Establishment of trust with my husband has kicked off the healing process. The rest unfolds as it should and it happens at home. I have to spend time thinking about and reflecting on the past in small doses, and then talking about it with my husband.
Basically, I suspect that this is a kind of therapy.
When I went to therapy, I was basically hearing an echo of my husband's statements, and it got annoying to have to pay to hear the same thing from a stranger that is already said in my home and main relationship.
But, even though my PTSD symptoms have reduced to being much more liveable since processing the hot spot traumas that have come up for me spontaneously, my health is taking a nose dive.
I have an autoimmune disorder that is coming into its own and have also a weak immune system. So I have chronic Shingles, that don't respond to my meds for them and keep me sick and in the Dr. most of my free time. I have a good chance of losing my eyesight or other severe damage from the illness.
The Dr.s so far haven't helped me with this. They say to reduce stress.
In order to do that any further, I may have to stop working and apply for disability.
I don't think I can go there because I'm not in therapy for PTSD. In fact, my PTSD might be worse than I think and I may be in denial (again) so it would help me track my PTSD if I had a good Psychiatrist who can administer CAPS scores and other scores and help document what's going on with my health as it relates to my PTSD.
Can anyone speak to this? Anyone not want a "relationship" with a T (I confess I do push people away and always have. I have kept my marriage over 20 years, some extended family I am close to and converse with often, and function well at work and in my own family, so I do not see a big issue with my tendency to not desire many relationships).
I don't want a relationship with a T. I just want a Dr. who can guide my health and life/career related decisions so that I don't work myself into the ER.