Things I Hate About Depression

[moshpitmunkey]

The fatigue and aches. Literally have had no energy to even clean my house or do my hair. My sister had to deep clean everything because I just didn't have it in me to do it. It took everything in me to take a shower yesterday.

The over and under eating. The sleep disturbances. The sadness, the guilt, the feeling numb or nothing. feeling on the verge of tears for seemingly no reason. the thoughts of suicide. not being able to enjoy everyday things or everyday experiences not having any meaning. having to pretend you're present when with people/family but you're really not and can barely concentrate on the conversation. Wanting to sleep all the time, fixating on past failures or blaming myself for things that aren't my fault. The emotional outbursts, irritability and frustration, the anxiety. The hopelessness. It sucks its exhausting I feel terrible its killing me.

 

[Ronin]

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I'm glad you're sharing, well done.

 

[SGT1209]

Hi Mpm... i understand.. i have this now too... I had a shower today and was exhausted...I am eating..but i have lost weight...i want to sleep all the time but i have insomnia and severe headaches - so i dont/cant. Have you spoke with your doctor or T? I know only i can get me out of this.. and its a matter of when...
sending kind thoughts your way x

 

[Mytime]

I don't think you could of said it any better. If you can, pick one thing. Just one thing to do each day. It can be having a shower. You don't even have to comb your hair, just have the shower.
You did one thing for you:)

 

[Snowflake]

I could have written that myself @moshpitmunkey . Your not alone. I wish there was a miracle cure- thinking of you.

 

[ladee]

You perfectly described that crack in the wall and when we descend into depression hell. We feel it coming and nothing much can be done to stop it.
We ride it out and don't give our self any credit for hanging on.
I've been there and will be there again. So just know I still hear you amongst all the chaos and noise. You aren't really alone.
Thank you for sharing. You give me strength . Maybe you Will be waiting for me When I emerge from my next one.
Gentle hugs if you accept.

 

[moshpitmunkey]

Hi Mpm... i understand.. i have this now too... I had a shower today and was exhausted...I am eating..b...

Ugh, I know exactly how you feel. I meet with a potential therapist later this week and am hoping to reach some kind of breakthrough. Its hard knowing that youre the only one who can get yourself out of it when you don't know how. But at least we're going through it together. Sending kindness and thoughts back your way❤

 

[moshpitmunkey]

Thank you so much @ladee for your kind words and reassurance and encouragement. Youre right we dont give ourselves enough credit for constantly fighting an uphill battle. Know that I will definitely be waiting for you when you emerge from your next one, and thank you for being here for me. Hugs are gladly accepted and returned to you

 

[moshpitmunkey]

I don't think you could of said it any better. If you can, pick one thing. Just one thing to do each day...

Good thinking, I should take things one step at a time, thank you. And thinking of you too @Snowflake ❤