@Dana1010 I know the feeling. I get this whirlwind of voices from the past often. Not so much voices, but images.. of inconsequential things like you said.. People I don't even know, from mistakes that happened 15 years ago. They just pop up in my mind and distract me from getting any work done. It's a gigantic pain in the ass. Worse yet, I can get stuck in my own past, approaching situations as the person I used to be, rather than the person I am today.
Oh, but one thing to keep in mind. That whole 'I'm the biggest loser' mentality that comes over you. That's not you. That's your symptoms talking. It took a long long time for me to understand that I often mistake my symptoms for myself, if that makes any sense. I now try to view it as an ugly spirit, a talking disease, that lives inside and tries to trick me.
I know that's a little bit of a weird way to look at it, but it has helped. And that distinction, between the voice of that spirit and myself, has helped a huge amount. Because it's my body. I'm the one who directs my hands, chooses what to do with my day... He can influence me, tell me bad things, but he's not the boss of me. And yours isn't the boss of you.
