Thinking About The Future

[Pencil]

I could no longer be assured that I could live up to any type of expectation, no matter how simple

This nails it for me.

 

[shimmerz]

This nails it for me.

@Pencil - I am sorry to hear that.

@Geordie my apologies for having misread your question.

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes I found the same.

I'm not sure if my expectations were self-expectations or others' expectations.

Other than not wanting my actions to harm anyone or cause problems, I have only one thing I live for now but I wouldn't share what it is with anybody. That being said if I can focus on it it is worth it (to me).

I guess that is my 'present' +/or future.

 

[xena21]

I had my whole life planned when I was 12 after I initially planned to kill myself. I thought if I planned to be good and work in good jobs to help people I would be forgiven for wanting to die. When things exploded on me 25 years later, and I lost my career, I lost all expectation of the future.

I don't think anymore of the future. I try to get through every day. I trudge through every day like I'm going through mud just to make it to the next day. Every day is a success because I want to die so much. Believe me I understand.

 

[anthony]

Yup... I honestly try not to even attempt too much within the future. There are things, such as booking a holiday or such, but even then, most of the content of said holiday is left until the present tense when actually in the location. If I try and map out a future, it typically just causes me stress.