Thinking In Sleep?

[mamachick]

I work in my sleep. The things that are on my mind that need done are interupting my sleep. Whatever I am stressed about does not shut off. It is as though I have anxiety in my sleep. Once I figured the best mortgage to apply for during sleep. That was the extreme when I awoke with the answer and went over the material and realized what I learned in my sleep was correct.

I am just never rested. How can I work in my sleep, which makes me want to stay in bed and sleep longer even though the quality is so poor. Then I am exhausted during the day. Even with benzo's, starting at 10 pm, I often do not fall asleep til dawn. I hate this and it is making the rest of my life difficult. Summer is usually best time but it is not helping this year. Just dont know what to do.

 

[JustBe]

I gave up getting restful sleep. I just grab a nap when I can. Good luck.

 

[shoulderblades]

I've been having dreams that I don't remember all of, but they felt like several days worth of time. Usually I just have detailed nightmares and dreams that have obvious subtext. I also often dream that I have gotten up and progressed several hours into my day, then I wake up for real and feel incredibly disoriented and tired.

I have had dreams like this for years. I thought I was the only one having such effed up, disorienting dreams because everyone I'd talk to about those dreams would just give me a blank stare as though they have no idea what I'm talking about or think I'm insane.

I have extremely vivid and graphic nightmares. Sometimes they are a distorted manifestation of my traumas, but most of the time they are just horrific nightmares with no apparent relation to my traumas. Or if they are related, it's very symbolic and difficult to work out the meaning.

My nightmares often feature a lot of blood, which is usually pouring out of me somewhere (my mouth or an open wound). I don't mean just a bit of it oozing out, I mean gushing like a fountain. I can taste it and smell it and everything. My dreams are almost always extremely visceral and tactile - meaning, they're not just gory, I can feel every single sensation, emotional and physical, happening to me. My dreams themselves often feel very traumatic, and they seem to go on forever. Sometimes they feel like they have gone on for a month and I wake up feeling like I've lost many days.

I relate very much with the constant thinking in sleep. There are nights were I feel like I am physically frozen and can't move and my mind is racing very lucidly over all sorts of details; when this happens, I am always very aware of myself and of my bedroom, I feel like I am awake and could get up if I wanted to, but I can't and I am trapped in my thoughts. There is never any real dreaming as such when this happens. Throughout that kind of sleep, I feel very gritty, exhausted and headachy, as though I haven't slept in days. My eyes feel itchy and my body often feels achy and weak.

And then there are night where I slip between heavily visceral, disturbing nightmares and the frozen, exhausted lucid thinking I just explained in the previous paragraph.

I don't know what it feels like to sleep normally. I feel like my sleep is haunted. I don't know if that makes sense, but that's how it feels.