Tired Of Feeling Depressed

[BlackbirdSinging]

It WILL pass.

I hope so. My therapist seems pretty confident that tapping is going to make some huge differences. I'm a little skeptical.

 

[Changing4Best]

I forced myself to go to the grocery today. Why, you may ask? Because my fridge was totally empty! I've been physically sick for a month and a half and both my neighbors DIED from this thing. So as you well might imagine, I am shook up over being this sick. None the less, I could not get a ride to the grocery, so I walk the quarter mile there and back. I was so exhausted when I got home that I could not even put the groceries away, I had to sit for awhile. Then once I did put them away, I fell into my recliner and slept for 2-3 hours. When I woke, I had some soup and then want back to resting. It is 9PM and this is the first time I have even put my computer on today and I am a computer addict! Now I'm going to bed...

 

[rightkindofme]

It sounds like you are sick, Sheila. I hope you feel better after resting.

I comfort myself by reminding myself that all of this goes in cycles. I have horrible depression cycles, of course. It always ends eventually. Some of the books that I like to read described it as you need to "lean into" the discomfort and for me what that means is extensive writing about exactly what is going on in my mind when I'm depressed. I've also been doing a lot of painting over the last few years, which is new for me.

As sure as the sun rises in the east my mood will change. No matter how depressed I am I try to have faith in that. I try to remind myself that I have had really bad patches before and they've always ended. Just because I can't see the end right now that doesn't mean that's not right around the bend.

I walk around the house chanting "just keep swimming swimming swimming" like pretty much everyone else in my generation, right?

I hope that you all find some relief soon.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling down today. I was feeling better earlier. Now I feel like crap. I hate to feel like this. I have things I have to do and I am not doing them. I so want to feel better. I will just keep swimming too.

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm feeling a little better. I decided to go to church, something that always comforts me. Then I have rested most of the rest of the day, other than to wash a blanket. That last was easy. I read a bit in one of my novels I am reading. I read maybe 3 of them a month. I order them by mail.

 

[Britt.f7]

I do wish my depression would end. The times I think I'm doing really well my husband still sees as depression. For me, I think, it wasn't as bad as it has been so it is okay. Kind of flawed thinking I'm sure.

Sheila, being sick and housebound certainly does not help with depression. I am glad you were able to get out for a little bit. That definitely helps. I hope you feel better soon!

 

[safenow]

Anyone have any suggestions on what might pick me up a bit

If you haven't done so already, start a positivity journal. You might really have to search for some things, but i'd like to share a few pages with you from mine.


Page 1) Write down all the things you are grateful right now. (The first time I did this, the only thing I could think of was Toilet Paper. So don’t get discouraged, just try to think of at least one thing. Some days, you may think of several. The main thing is, don’t not write at least one thing.).


Page 2) Write down your favorite things. (when I first stated doing this, the only thing I could think of was Hollygrove Home for Children. The happiest time of my youth. Now I include colors, smells, sounds, tastes, object I can touch. I recommend using all your senses to do this.)

Page 3) Write down all the things you enjoy about being outside. (Walking in the rain, Snowmen, Sleeping in the sunshine, Hugging a tree, dichondra, etc. etc.) With all your pictures you can create a book just from those things you've photographed, but this is important to write them down.

Page 4) Write down any exercise that relaxes you. (One I found helpful is to lie on a bed, tighten each area of my body, one at a time. Then release the tension. ie. Tighten my toes on the right foot, release. Then move to ankle, tighten, release. Do one side of the body at a time. Move up the body slowly. Be sure to breathe slowly while you are doing this.)

Page 5) Write down different types of distraction. Examples: tossing a deck of cards on the floor, then pick them up in order. Ie. ace, king, queen, jack, etc.); staring at a candle flame; working a puzzle; going for a walk around the block; playing a musical instrument.

Do not write anything negative in this journal. Use a different journal for day to day problems.

Page 6) Write down your favorite web sites. For example: [DLMURL]http://www.garfield.com[/DLMURL] (comic pages)

Just creating this journal can lift you in ways you never thought possible. Take care my dear new friend. it was fun meeting you on the chat. Thank you for allowing me to share with you.

safenow

 

[Changing4Best]

If you haven't done so already, start a positivity journal.
safenow

Thanks, Safenow, I shall try this Positivity Journal. It does seem involved, so just to be able to do it, I will take notes on what to do. Afterall, I cannot keep coming back here to this page every day just to read your directions!

 

[safenow]

LOL. Did you know you can copy and print it out? Yup. You sure can. Then, just cut and paste each one on a page. Then, you can do them that way.

 

[Sara1999]

I have things I have to do and I am not doing them

I completely understand. Today I got up at about 3 pm, looked at my list of what needed to be done today, and then did none of it and instead laid down on the couch and fell asleep for a few hours more. My list was not complicated (pick up prescriptions at the pharmacy (which is 5 minutes from home), do 1 load of laundry, call 1 friend, make something for dinner). Then I feel bad for being so unproductive, especially when the few tasks that I needed to do were so simple and required so little time. But even the simplest of tasks require SO much energy.

 

[GreenFrog2]

But even the simplest of tasks require SO much energy.

Don't they just! I had an huge emotional day yesterday and think that I am at risk of plunging into depression today. I have given myself the day off - from anything that gives me anxiety at all. So I went for a walk, but won't be doing the laundry!

Instead of beating myself up I am just accepting that I need a "personal day" and will do things that help me to relax and be well so that I can benefit from all of the positives that I gained yesterday.

 

[Bliss55]

This sounds like a great way to put things into perspective. Thank you!