Tired Of The Journey

[Tinyflame]

((((Dear Tessa))))), :(.

Please take a break away from them mentally if not physically. They don't understand. All you've done, and all you do, or even wanting to, it means everything. You have done so much for everyone else, take care of yourself too. ((((((Hugs)))).

 

[Tinyflame]

(My thoughts and prayrs for you, if that's ok, xox.)

 

[Tessa]

Thankyou

 

[Tinyflame]

Always Tessa, the prayers and love are always there.

Love to you :hug: .

 

[Tessa]

I can't stand the bullying anymore - there is no help.

 

[Tessa]

Feeling worthless. It does not seem to matter how much expereience or qualifications I have I am still treated like dirt.

Had a breast cancer scare which was a comedy of errors also.I think I went into a place of no feeling and it felt like my life was on pause while I waited and waited for appointments and endured biopsy needles and mix ups. Perhaps I need to go away and cry and let it all go...

 

[Sleepless]

Tessa, what you said, " I went to bed traumatized and crying and the word ridiculous went round and round in my head until I contemplated climbing the windmill and hanging." I could really relate to that description.

I have been reading some of the posts and I see so many bright creative people here, like you.

I hope you will try to forgive your sons for not understanding, even my closest friends don't get it. I hope you will be nice to yourself
and even if they never understand, then maybe they are the lucky ones.

 

[Tessa]

Still trying to fight through the nothingness after my Fathers death and now the bullying rears it's ugly head. I don't think anyone in this world has any respect for me...doing it tough right now.

 

[seedling]

Sorry to hear your Father has passed.
Hang in there, I'm wanting to offer you a word of encouragement.

 

[Tessa]

Thankyou. Dad was found dead in the bathroom. I deal with so much death however I am finding it hard when it is my father.
The bullying seems never to end at work.

 

[seedling]

Your father sounds like he was really special to you. That is a true gift.
I miss my dad, he's been gone 10 years now.
Makes it hard to fend off the bullying when you're feeling low.

 

[intothelight]

Tessa,

I am sorry to hear about the death of your father. Even though you deal with death, its still your father and that makes it completely different.
Take care of yourself.

Deb