Dom Violence Today's session - Writing up complicated feelings for next session about seeing Ex’s profile online

[LucyLou]

Had session this morning. I told her how I had checked my ex's profile....his sister popped up on my FB memories, a pic of the 3 of us and I guess curiosity got the best of me and I looked to see what he was upto. It made me feels lots of different things. I mentioned it to therapist, not expecting her to want more info told her I couldn't do that in words but I'd write it up for next session. Now it's all I can think of and I would like to ask about another session for Thurs but I don't want her to think "oh god, not her again" I kind of regret bringing it up. Whenever I start on something big, I always have a little voice in my head saying "what's the point, she won't believe you anyway" and it's not her, it's me and I know talking about this would be a big step forward. It's just so hard, when I have some self blame about the whole thing too because yeh, it did get physical but I put my hands on him first and that's when it eacalated. I know what I did and what he did were so, so different but I started it. I've already started writing bits. I hate having it in my head like this, which is why I think an extra session would be good.

 

[Friday]

It’s been a few days… How’s the write up going? (Personally, the more I WANT to write something? The more likely it is I’ll be working on it in the car in the parking lot, day of).

Now it's all I can think of and I would like to ask about another session for Thurs but I don't want her to think "oh god, not her again" I kind of regret bringing it up.

When I’m paying for therapy? I usually book double sessions twice a week. During seeeeerious processing? It can be twice that, double sessions 4x per week, or be 1 all day session followed by a half day, a day later. A day to work. A day to crash. A half day to collect loose ends. 4 days at me leisure. Depends on what I’m working on. The only time I do the McStandard 50minutes? Is when it’s free/pro bono, and I’m not booking what works for me, I take what is offered.

Different disorders, and personalities, are helped best by different things.

I’d strongly recommend *telling her* that you’re mind reading that she hates her job/clients in general, or is kind of sick of you, individually… so that when help with a particularly sticky issue comes up in the future? You aren’t beating yourself up, or throwing yourself (and her!) under the bus to salve avoidance.