Total Meltdown Full Stop

[lymphomamama]

Have been in full meltdown for over 24 hrs. Raging, crying, vicious verbal attacks on people, no sleep, no appetite, off my meds to an extent, taking klonopin and muscle relaxers ,crushing headache, out of control on multiple fronts. Alone in a house full of people. Hypervigilant. Smoking acres of pot but just CBDn bot the Indica prescribed. Anger. Anger
Anger f*cking rage.From where I don't know. Jus f*cking enraged. Sad so deep I can't quit crying. My pets are scared.Tell me someone has been here and knows how to get out.

 

[Mim28]

when did you stop your meds?

 

[lymphomamama]

Just yesterday morning when the shazbot hit the fan. So many things hit at once. I. Can't get my act together. My adult kids are watching me like hawks. I'm pinned and penned and hurt by someone I've trusted my whole life. I can't get anything yo go right. I'm so mad.so f*cking mad

 

[lymphomamama]

I have trouble remembering my rx. I'm on so many pills at this point it's a day long process I can't : keep up

 

[EveHarrington]

What meds are you on? Doses?

 

[Gs172003]

I have trouble remembering my rx. I'm on so many pills at this point it's a day long process I can't...

I have a co-worker like that. I gave him one of those pill boxes with the days on them. You can also set reminders on your phone if you have a smart phone.

 

[lymphomamama]

What meds are you on? Doses?

Effector 75x 2 day. BUSPAR 20 3x Klonopin 3 3x a muscle relaxet that slips my mind 3x Percocet 10@ 6 hrs. I also take a thyroid med, & omeprazole.

 

[lymphomamama]

I have a co-worker like that. I gave him one of those pill boxes with the days on them. You can also set...

Oh. I have a box. I just won't go get them. I'm telling myself in my head and he at I won't go do it. Screwed up, I know. Sometimes I think I'm better off without them cuz they make me sleepy and stupid.

 

[lymphomamama]

I don't leave the house unless is therapy or to buy mmj. Crowds freak the shazbot out of me and I can't walk to far. Loud music makes me run right out of the building.

 

[EveHarrington]

Did you stop taking all of them? I'm concerned that stopping your meds may be adding to your symptoms.

 

[lymphomamama]

Did you stop taking all of them? I'm concerned that stopping your meds may be adding to your symp...

I haven't taken the effector for sure. I will right now as we speak though. I have been taking the klonopin (trying to slow down the REALLY outlandish rage). After I forget a few my head tells me forget them after a.bit my mind just gets like "see? So far so good without it" but it lies I guess.

 

[EveHarrington]

Do you think that your meds are helping?

I understand wanting to get off them, but you're going to put yourself through hell if you suddenly stop the Effexor and Klonopin, especially. It would be best to taper down.