Other Trauma-Splitting/Parts

Roland

Confident
Hello everyone.

When I had my psychological evaluation, it was determined that my personality is split, not like DID, but like trauma splitting, common for people with childhood trauma and ptsd. One is a direct mirror of my dad (this showed on my psych eval), this part is narcissist, schizoid, antisocial, masochist, and turbulent. It's are self-defense coping mechanisms. The narcissist one shows up when I feel threatened, especially by men. I also have a suicidal part.

I'd like to discuss one that I believe is a part, I just don't understand how it works. When I'm around groups of people, I assert social dominance, by being loud, acting kinda crazy, like a clown. I make fun of people, everything is a joke, etc. This is NOT my main personality. In general, I'm a relatively quiet person, I only really act crazy like that in groups of people, I feel anxious and don't really know the people and act like that.

Those of you that have studied or done parts work, why would I do that? How is that helpful? What would have "made" that personality split? I just don't really understand it, and it didn't come up in my psych eval. Though, "Expressively dramatic" did come up, which is definitely a part of that "crazy part". Like if I have a minor injury on my foot I'll be like "I'm gonna cut my foot off, it's on fire!" and if I'm in severe mental pain I'm just silent, like I internalize everything, but if I can turn it into a joke than I'll definitely be "Expressively dramatic".

@shimmerz I know you may have some valuable insight
 

Roland

Confident
I haven't read other people's posts responses. My initial reaction to your post is have you sat down, got quiet internally, and imagined that loud, crazy part is sitting next to you and ask it your "why" "where" "when" questions, and be as non-judgemental as you can be, and promise yourself you will be welcoming? and then wait to hear the answers? My guess is they will come very quickly and readily.
That’s a good method
 

hithere

MyPTSD Pro
Perhaps it's not "entirely" maladaptive. Perhaps you can "consciously" tweek it so you don't make jokes about others, but still be the life of the party. Folks with ADHD (hithere) get really "high" when we're around groups of people. The world needs these types to lighten the road especially when doing boring stuff like waiting in lines and such.
Also, I have question. I'm intriqued with this test you took. I've never heard of a way to determine that possibility splitting is going on. what's the name of the test?
 

Roland

Confident
Perhaps it's not "entirely" maladaptive. Perhaps you can "consciously" tweek it so you don't make jokes about others, but still be the life of the party. Folks with ADHD (hithere) get really "high" when we're around groups of people. The world needs these types to lighten the road especially when doing boring stuff like waiting in lines and such.
Also, I have question. I'm intriqued with this test you took. I've never heard of a way to determine that possibility splitting is going on. what's the name of the test?
I don’t have ADHD (I admire people that do) so like it’s not really “me” I do it out of discomfort and anxiety so yeah idk, I’d like to be able to be myself around people.

I had a psychological evaluation, the reason why my personality split showed was because it tested personality disorders. I myself have PTSD and avoidant personality disorder, but my dads personality disorders showed on the type and style level (instead of the disorder level) so my psychologist knew it wasn’t my main personality that had those traits. My dad apparently has antisocial personality disorder, narcissistic personality disorder, schizoid, turbulence, masochism, I tested all of these on the style or type level, but not disorder level. So I don’t actually have these disorder, my personality split mirrors my dad to be powerful perpetrator instead of my own weak victim self.

So it’s not a test that determines parts per se, that personality was shown because of personality disorders
 
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