Sexual Assault Triggered And Now Flooded

[recoveringfromptsd]

Today while I was in DBT I got triggered and started disassociating, I got grounded eventually, but since I have been having these intense visualized flashbacks of all of my rapes. I can seem to turn them off, I have tried going to my safe place which usually works when nothing else does, I have tried containment strategies, this is very distressing.

 

[Symphony]

Ah shit. I'm sorry. Do you feel strong enough to ride it out?

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I am trying....

 

[Symphony]

Could a radio drama be useful or helpful to distract your mind? There's a ton of free podcasts of new and old radio shows. I used to love The Shadow.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

o you feel strong enough to ride it out?

Sorry, After I went to bed after my meds kicked in I had a really intense flashback and found myself scratching at my arm really hard (self-harm, I did this in hospital too), I stopped before any damage was done.

It's a good thing I see my abuse T this morning.

 

[Symphony]

I'm glad that's lined up

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

10am so I am getting ready now, just finish breakfast while checking this forum.

 

[Symphony]

How's it now?

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I am surviving, but that about it, I am in a lot of emotional pain.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

@Symphony In many respects I wish I was still at SP TDU, this stuff is a lot overwhelming. it would be easier to become an addict or alcoholic and not feel anything that this. I hate that I can't even get any relief from it like I used to.

 

[Symphony]

I keep telling my therapist that I'm not an alcoholic yet. Pretty damn close to start drinking because I can't do this anymore. I'm sure you can relate.