Triggered while doing basic things at Work

[BuildingSelf24]

I've been working this new job for a few months now. I have recurring issues of getting triggered when a task requires more energy or effort. Simple tasks I breeze through, but as soon as there's a bit of ambiguity or I'm unsure, I can't think straight, and then I get frustrated that I can't. Sometimes I start dissociating while doing a task and fall asleep, which isn't good since I have to keep track of the time I spend on tasks.

I know it's because of my childhood trauma of getting hit if I didn't respond fast enough or didn't know something. I try remembering that and being gentle with myself. I've heard that dissociation might be about stuck feelings. I just fall asleep when I try to stay still and feel my feelings.

My question is: what techniques can help with the dissociation and triggering? I'm trying to incorporate things I read in psych books. They helped with some things, but I'm stuck in this aspect.

 

[BuildingSelf24]

In addition to grounding, I would take some martial arts courses. So you KNOW, as you ground yourself out in the present, that if anyone hits you? Or… tries… to hit you? That you can either avoid it, or knock THEM flat.

One of those 2 birds, 1 stone, thing. As it underscores that you are NOT a child. But a very capable adult.


FWIW, I think this is bullshit.. ESPECIALLY if my feelings are from 20 years ago (IE completely wrong).

I thought about this today when I started to dissociate and it made me realize that I could fight back if my family or anyone else tried to hit me. I also had a fear of men touching me or retaliating if I rejected them and this made me realize I could fight back. I thought I was too weak to and would be overpowered but I realized I could kick them in the nuts if I felt I couldn’t take them physically. It made me feel stronger and safer. Thank you for that!!